hmmm
it's been a long year. i'm happy with the friendships i've made and maintained. i'm no going to do any weird shoutout thing b/c everyone i love knows who they are. this year i made the choice to go to art school, and i've made it through an entire semester without regretting it (or flunking out) which is a good sign. i started having sex again this year, and while i still do things i regret sometimes, i think i'm happy with that aspect of my life as well. and romantically, i'm starting next year without this years baggage, and with something that's just blossoming now to deal with in january (and hopefully later too). i wont say that this year's romantic involvement wasn't painful, but overall i'm glad that at least a part of it happened. things have been good with my family lately, i'm actually starting to believe that the people you love don't always have to piss you off. i hope (believe) my grandma will some through her current ordeal, but i'm scared that she will miss being this superhuman force in everyones lives. i should call her more, but it hurts so much to hear her so weak. i think, mostly, next year is going to be pretty awesome. and so is tonight. i think i will cry in a good way.