saturday...
i was standing there and he (not saying his name) came up to me from behind and hugged me and kissed my neck. thats my number one weakness... i love when guys do that....that makes my legs feel like jello.
that really got my mind off of other problems, but then it opened up a little door of other problems. you see, he is someone i wouldnt normally like, but theres something about him that just wont let me forget about him. the more and more i hang out with him...the more i start thinking about more than just hugs and kisses, that just maybe, maybe more than friends would be nice.
then theres that part of me that has been hurt over and over again that doesnt want anymore relationships....im tired of the pain.
anyway...lets just forget about that for now.
"You look so fine, i want to break you heart and give you mine" -Garbage
"Im here without you, but youre still on my lonely mind. I think about you baby, and i dream about you all the time." -Three doors down.
"This is my life, its what it was before, all of these feelings ive shared. And these are my dreams, that ive never lived before. Somebody shake me cuz i, i must be sleeping..." -Staind
"Im so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears, and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave cuz your presence still lingers here and it wont leave me alone..." -Evanescence
"I wake up in the mornin, put on my face. The one thats gonna get me through another day.... Im so naked around you and it shows. You see right through me..." -Avril lavigne
i relate to all these songs...*sigh* sadly enough. i love these songs.
what should i do? no boyfriends? no love? what am i gonna do?
well, i need to get some sleep, goodnight
that really got my mind off of other problems, but then it opened up a little door of other problems. you see, he is someone i wouldnt normally like, but theres something about him that just wont let me forget about him. the more and more i hang out with him...the more i start thinking about more than just hugs and kisses, that just maybe, maybe more than friends would be nice.
then theres that part of me that has been hurt over and over again that doesnt want anymore relationships....im tired of the pain.
anyway...lets just forget about that for now.
"You look so fine, i want to break you heart and give you mine" -Garbage
"Im here without you, but youre still on my lonely mind. I think about you baby, and i dream about you all the time." -Three doors down.
"This is my life, its what it was before, all of these feelings ive shared. And these are my dreams, that ive never lived before. Somebody shake me cuz i, i must be sleeping..." -Staind
"Im so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears, and if you have to leave i wish that you would just leave cuz your presence still lingers here and it wont leave me alone..." -Evanescence
"I wake up in the mornin, put on my face. The one thats gonna get me through another day.... Im so naked around you and it shows. You see right through me..." -Avril lavigne
i relate to all these songs...*sigh* sadly enough. i love these songs.
what should i do? no boyfriends? no love? what am i gonna do?
well, i need to get some sleep, goodnight