I really need to be better
I really need to be better at this.
I am having one of the worst days I have had in a long long time. I had a dream last night that was so real so real and was set sometime this summer, the only problem is that Justin isn't here anymore and Nick's girlfriend hates me so I know it will never happen. I don't understand dreams, I really don't. How can I dream of a party with Bill (who I didn't know back when I had JJ), Justin, Sherrie, Jermey, Nick and Heather all parting together. Only 3 of them I knew when JJ was alive. I don't get how dreams work at all.
So all day I have been super emotional and cried at the drop of a hat. I had the radio on and a song came on that JJ use to sing and I bawled for a long time. it has been almost 5 years and today it feels like just yesterday he was leaving my apartment for the last time. I still think of him all the time.
I am having one of the worst days I have had in a long long time. I had a dream last night that was so real so real and was set sometime this summer, the only problem is that Justin isn't here anymore and Nick's girlfriend hates me so I know it will never happen. I don't understand dreams, I really don't. How can I dream of a party with Bill (who I didn't know back when I had JJ), Justin, Sherrie, Jermey, Nick and Heather all parting together. Only 3 of them I knew when JJ was alive. I don't get how dreams work at all.
So all day I have been super emotional and cried at the drop of a hat. I had the radio on and a song came on that JJ use to sing and I bawled for a long time. it has been almost 5 years and today it feels like just yesterday he was leaving my apartment for the last time. I still think of him all the time.