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Spending time with friends is good stuff.
I felt odd tonight (may have been last night). Dave and I were talking, and he said something that just made my stomach tighten. I wasn't sure how to react. We talked about it, and I realized a little bit of why, but I still don't fully understand it.
I really enjoy being sure of things. I also really like it when people around me understand me. And when they agree with what I feel. It's almost like it validates my feelings. It's good to hear validation every once in a while.
I have kept this vague for a couple of reasons. I don't mean to keep anyone out of my inner thoughts, but I just don't feel like this is the best place to become so very open.
I enjoy atmosphere. 4th Street is awesome for that very reason. I enjoy sitting and shooting the shit. It's good stuff. I like when people get me, and my humor. It's refreshing to know that I can act like a goof, or really serious with people and they will react appropriately.
I like the fact that even though the pirate joke is horrible, it's still funny. Just like the Butt Baron. I like that I have inside jokes with others. I like that I break my intimacy barriers on a regular basis. I like that I have friends I can trust that allow me to do that with out fear.
I love the fact that God put people in my life that allow me to be. I love that he taught me some hard lessons in a lot of difficult situations. I love that even though I sin, he never turns his back on me. Even when I turn my back on him.
I love friends that just get me. Who I am, where I am, what I feel. They may not always understand 100%, but they do care enough to listen and get the entire picture. Listening is a very good friend quality.
I have a lot of things I could be upset by. Things that could tear me down and make me feel like crap. I chose to not let that happen. Sure, bad things have happened, and are likely to happen in the future. But God's plan cannot be stopped by bad things. In the end God wins, and I win because of His mercy and grace. That realization helps me smile every day.
My son is amazing. So bright and smart and funny and just plain beautiful. He is the center of what I plan for. He is the future I look forward to. I have not always been the best father, but I continually work to make that change. Just like a lot of other things.
I felt odd tonight (may have been last night). Dave and I were talking, and he said something that just made my stomach tighten. I wasn't sure how to react. We talked about it, and I realized a little bit of why, but I still don't fully understand it.
I really enjoy being sure of things. I also really like it when people around me understand me. And when they agree with what I feel. It's almost like it validates my feelings. It's good to hear validation every once in a while.
I have kept this vague for a couple of reasons. I don't mean to keep anyone out of my inner thoughts, but I just don't feel like this is the best place to become so very open.
I enjoy atmosphere. 4th Street is awesome for that very reason. I enjoy sitting and shooting the shit. It's good stuff. I like when people get me, and my humor. It's refreshing to know that I can act like a goof, or really serious with people and they will react appropriately.
I like the fact that even though the pirate joke is horrible, it's still funny. Just like the Butt Baron. I like that I have inside jokes with others. I like that I break my intimacy barriers on a regular basis. I like that I have friends I can trust that allow me to do that with out fear.
I love the fact that God put people in my life that allow me to be. I love that he taught me some hard lessons in a lot of difficult situations. I love that even though I sin, he never turns his back on me. Even when I turn my back on him.
I love friends that just get me. Who I am, where I am, what I feel. They may not always understand 100%, but they do care enough to listen and get the entire picture. Listening is a very good friend quality.
I have a lot of things I could be upset by. Things that could tear me down and make me feel like crap. I chose to not let that happen. Sure, bad things have happened, and are likely to happen in the future. But God's plan cannot be stopped by bad things. In the end God wins, and I win because of His mercy and grace. That realization helps me smile every day.
My son is amazing. So bright and smart and funny and just plain beautiful. He is the center of what I plan for. He is the future I look forward to. I have not always been the best father, but I continually work to make that change. Just like a lot of other things.