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thanks for the welcome... never expected anyone would remember me... seems not everyone is as bad in this world:) on my part i'm sorry for disappearing for some time... well, people who know me know that this is what i do when i feel down... i disappear for some months to recharge my batteries... and then come back when i'm ready to face the world again... maybe it's not the best way to deal with things but it worked for me till now... it may be thought running away... but for me it's just about letting the wounds heal a bit before coming back to "battle"... anyway not to waste more words on that seems that i am back... tho i definitely have to make some changes in this place... it brings back too many memories as i said... i think i will start with making new icons... because looking at the ones i have now just reminds me of their author... and that's no good... i think i will choose moving on after all... i cannot just sit and think about a lost friend that apparently was never my friend in the first place taking the way it ended...
lately i've been coming back to some activity after long period of...well... i guess you could call it depression (for lack of a better word)... took me some months to get over some things... but the worst scum always comes to the surface sooner or later, which means i would be a real pain in the ass to be drowned :P
i was supposed to start a therapy but i chickened... or maybe i realized what i was doing in time... i never trusted doctors in the long run... i think i can have a better therapy in my own company... just me and my thoughts... and anyway, after all i've gone through in life they could as well want to lock me up somewhere... so better not to risk :) on the other hand what does not kill me, makes me stronger... or as discordians use to say: what does not kill me, should better run pretty damn fast :P
meantime i restarted my Rammstein Fanclub after a period of death and silence... since the fanclub has been ruined by some people half a year ago... yeah as you can guess it really helped me to get over all the rest... but misery loves company they say, so it would be too beautiful if only one terrible thing happened to us at a time...
anyway i leanred a lot about html and php and other shit like this... and i am really happy i did... gave me some occupation during dark hours... and i found out making websites is fascinating... also been learning some Photoshop and this is also very cool...
i'm still at university... last year... should be writing my MA Thesis... but i don't really feel like it... and i admit it, it's only because i'm lazy... there are so many better things i can do:)
i've been writing a lot... but of course not for my studies... been reading a lot too... as well rather for the fun of it...
guess that would be the end of a very short story of this half a year...
and against all odds... i'm still a Kaetzchen as in old times... altho now ownerless...
+++ do not stand at my grave and weep... i am not there, i do not sleep... +++
lately i've been coming back to some activity after long period of...well... i guess you could call it depression (for lack of a better word)... took me some months to get over some things... but the worst scum always comes to the surface sooner or later, which means i would be a real pain in the ass to be drowned :P
i was supposed to start a therapy but i chickened... or maybe i realized what i was doing in time... i never trusted doctors in the long run... i think i can have a better therapy in my own company... just me and my thoughts... and anyway, after all i've gone through in life they could as well want to lock me up somewhere... so better not to risk :) on the other hand what does not kill me, makes me stronger... or as discordians use to say: what does not kill me, should better run pretty damn fast :P
meantime i restarted my Rammstein Fanclub after a period of death and silence... since the fanclub has been ruined by some people half a year ago... yeah as you can guess it really helped me to get over all the rest... but misery loves company they say, so it would be too beautiful if only one terrible thing happened to us at a time...
anyway i leanred a lot about html and php and other shit like this... and i am really happy i did... gave me some occupation during dark hours... and i found out making websites is fascinating... also been learning some Photoshop and this is also very cool...
i'm still at university... last year... should be writing my MA Thesis... but i don't really feel like it... and i admit it, it's only because i'm lazy... there are so many better things i can do:)
i've been writing a lot... but of course not for my studies... been reading a lot too... as well rather for the fun of it...
guess that would be the end of a very short story of this half a year...
and against all odds... i'm still a Kaetzchen as in old times... altho now ownerless...
+++ do not stand at my grave and weep... i am not there, i do not sleep... +++