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first i wanna say happy birfday to sharon aka krispy_kream!! X3 Hope you have an awesome day tomorrow/today! Thoughts are with you and I miss you and all that. XD
But other than that...
wallet = stolen, not lost. Lovely. Woke up to find my savings was empty and my checking was overdrawn about $20 ^__^b fun times. Couldn't call to cancel the card because the customer service was closed today. Well, serves me right, I shoulda done it when my parents said. I keep disappointing myself lately. Like... I actually start crying... in front of people. Which is really bad, cuz, ya know, I don't do that. And then I started wondering if that's why I feel so dumb and awkward when someone else cries in front of me? I hardly have people do it for me, so I dunno what to do. And then... I just feel... stupider. And then when I get upset or cry in front of my mom she's just like, "why do you get so upset??" and then after saying that, she just left. Like its so bad for me to cry when I just feel like I can't take it anymore. Then, of course, it could be just the fact that she's not used to seeing me like that. God, now I just wanna cry again. I don't even know why.
Sarah's in town right now, and so is my cousin Sydney. My mom went to corpus and came back with her to stay with us for 2 weeks. I hope she's not bored or anything. I'm not very exciting, and without my liscence or money, I can't take her anywhere. But she's seemed like she's having fun, and I've done what I could. Tomorrow I gotta go back to work, and both Sarah and Sydney just have to wait around. And I kinda feel bad. And then I don't wanna go to work because I'm all bitter and pissed that someone stole my wallet there!! Fuckin' shit man... *PISSED* I just... *grump*
... i dont want to finish this post anymore... ~___~ its going as is, I have a headache.
But other than that...
wallet = stolen, not lost. Lovely. Woke up to find my savings was empty and my checking was overdrawn about $20 ^__^b fun times. Couldn't call to cancel the card because the customer service was closed today. Well, serves me right, I shoulda done it when my parents said. I keep disappointing myself lately. Like... I actually start crying... in front of people. Which is really bad, cuz, ya know, I don't do that. And then I started wondering if that's why I feel so dumb and awkward when someone else cries in front of me? I hardly have people do it for me, so I dunno what to do. And then... I just feel... stupider. And then when I get upset or cry in front of my mom she's just like, "why do you get so upset??" and then after saying that, she just left. Like its so bad for me to cry when I just feel like I can't take it anymore. Then, of course, it could be just the fact that she's not used to seeing me like that. God, now I just wanna cry again. I don't even know why.
Sarah's in town right now, and so is my cousin Sydney. My mom went to corpus and came back with her to stay with us for 2 weeks. I hope she's not bored or anything. I'm not very exciting, and without my liscence or money, I can't take her anywhere. But she's seemed like she's having fun, and I've done what I could. Tomorrow I gotta go back to work, and both Sarah and Sydney just have to wait around. And I kinda feel bad. And then I don't wanna go to work because I'm all bitter and pissed that someone stole my wallet there!! Fuckin' shit man... *PISSED* I just... *grump*
... i dont want to finish this post anymore... ~___~ its going as is, I have a headache.