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[kittycat1185]

Last night, I thought I wouldn’t see the dawn,
I didn’t want to see the sun-rise,
I wanted darkness,
I wanted forever night.

Something rose over me,
Something stayed my hand,
My head screamed and my heart broke,
But my hand was stayed.

I failed, again,
Like a second place runner,
Like a caught fox,
I came in last.

Something rose over me,
Something stayed my hand,
My head screamed and my heart broke,
But my hand was stayed.

I wanted to die with the old week,
I wanted to stop running,
I was exhausted,
I wanted out.

Something rose over me,
Something stayed my hand,
My head screamed and my heart broke,
But my hand was stayed.

I got scared,
Not by the blood,
Nor by the emptiness,
But by their loss.

Something rose over me,
Something stayed my hand,
My head screamed and my heart broke,
But my hand was stayed.

I didn’t care about them when I started,
They didn’t matter in my selfish mind,
The greatest act of selfishness,
But then I got a conscience.

Something rose over me,
Something stayed my hand,
My head screamed and my heart broke,
But my hand was stayed.

I’m now waiting for the time,
The time when they no longer matter,
When I will take the last step,
And I will be selfish forever.