May 12, 2005 21:09
I've been freaking out a lot lately. Over nothing really.
I want to do something. I want to make a big impact. I want to get rid of all the sick fucks.. and help the people who have been hurt by them.
I just wish there was some way to fix everything... right now.
I wish I didn't get so scared so often. I'm sick of being scared.
I'm angry with media.. and I'm angry with men (I'm sorry, I know that's trully unfair).
I'm angry with society as a whole.
I'm also annoyed that I'm going to be stuck at the Listening Ear for TWELVE HOURS.. and I just found out the potty's broken.
I want to get to work now. I don't want to be in college... I want to be trully making things better. But damn, there just aren't enough hours in the day. All my time is taken up with work and this... really that's all I do anymore, and I'm not at the Listening Ear that much. Both of these things are working towards making the world a better place... I really have one of the most meaningful jobs I could possibly have.. and yet it's not enough. I want to be safe. And I want to make other's safe.
I want to fight back. What against.. I'm not sure.