Awake
So its the middle of he night, and I am very awake. I am not sure if this is because I am used to sleeping with Puck, and he is away (which would be sad, I don't want co-dependant sleep patterns), or(I tend to get a bit of insomnia around then, but this is a little early for that). Either way, I am awake, and bored. I would watch a movie on my ipod, but it is down stairs, and I just don't want to leave the bed right now. I guess I will go to Hulu after this. I have things on my mind too.
Interview
The interview went ok, but I am conflicted to if I would take the job if it was offered. The drive will be about an hour each way, best I can figure. Maybe more. And the guy who interviewed me seems to be one of those people don't matter types. The position I interviewed for is to replace two part-time people, and he told me he just let go the IT person, because it was cheaper to outsource. I get that, bottom line is king, but it made me feel uncomfortable. Also this is a 5 day a week, no working from home sort of thing, and I don't like being part of the problem. On the other hand, I really, really, really, really need a job. I can barely make it on the unemployment, which will be gone very soon. What I really would like is a job near emory, or in midtown, or anyplace near the train. Accounting, analyst, admin, data entry, clerical. I don't care what, or even so much how it pays, just that it is close.
Connection to people
I figured that once the winter was over I would start feeling more connected and interested in people. And I do a little, but not to the level I think is normal. I still find that I like being alone more than I ever have in years. Some of my friends had an all weekend party, and generally I would have been in for the long haul, instead I only went for about half a day, and I found myself a little uncomfortable with all the people. There were a few people I did not know, or that I just knew a little, and I had 0% urge to speak to them. I sort of feel disconnected from my friends too. There are several things that are making me feel this way, some of them leaving team poly, me not being a part of Alchemy this year, them making lots of new friends. I just feel sort of out of place. This is not, by the way, a cry for help or anything, just 4 AM thinking.
Future Career
I want to teach. I think that would be a good job for me. I like teaching and the schedule appeals to me. I loved being in school so much, I like semester, everything having a set end and beginning. Working in the cooperate world is not really my thing. I am going to do it again, because I need more experience, but after that, I am going to try teaching. I should have enough money to sign up for my CPA exam really soon (I have been saving here and there for a while now) after that I am going to do what needs to be done to get my Master's Degree. I am trying to pick between Accounting, Economics and Finance. With just a Master's in any of these fields, I should be able to teach at a smaller or community college at least on an adjunct level. Then I can work on a PhD. if I feel the need.
I wish the sun would come up. Awake and doing stuff in the dark feels weird.
Interview
The interview went ok, but I am conflicted to if I would take the job if it was offered. The drive will be about an hour each way, best I can figure. Maybe more. And the guy who interviewed me seems to be one of those people don't matter types. The position I interviewed for is to replace two part-time people, and he told me he just let go the IT person, because it was cheaper to outsource. I get that, bottom line is king, but it made me feel uncomfortable. Also this is a 5 day a week, no working from home sort of thing, and I don't like being part of the problem. On the other hand, I really, really, really, really need a job. I can barely make it on the unemployment, which will be gone very soon. What I really would like is a job near emory, or in midtown, or anyplace near the train. Accounting, analyst, admin, data entry, clerical. I don't care what, or even so much how it pays, just that it is close.
Connection to people
I figured that once the winter was over I would start feeling more connected and interested in people. And I do a little, but not to the level I think is normal. I still find that I like being alone more than I ever have in years. Some of my friends had an all weekend party, and generally I would have been in for the long haul, instead I only went for about half a day, and I found myself a little uncomfortable with all the people. There were a few people I did not know, or that I just knew a little, and I had 0% urge to speak to them. I sort of feel disconnected from my friends too. There are several things that are making me feel this way, some of them leaving team poly, me not being a part of Alchemy this year, them making lots of new friends. I just feel sort of out of place. This is not, by the way, a cry for help or anything, just 4 AM thinking.
Future Career
I want to teach. I think that would be a good job for me. I like teaching and the schedule appeals to me. I loved being in school so much, I like semester, everything having a set end and beginning. Working in the cooperate world is not really my thing. I am going to do it again, because I need more experience, but after that, I am going to try teaching. I should have enough money to sign up for my CPA exam really soon (I have been saving here and there for a while now) after that I am going to do what needs to be done to get my Master's Degree. I am trying to pick between Accounting, Economics and Finance. With just a Master's in any of these fields, I should be able to teach at a smaller or community college at least on an adjunct level. Then I can work on a PhD. if I feel the need.
I wish the sun would come up. Awake and doing stuff in the dark feels weird.