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I am insanely grateful to Vicky for getting me hooked on My Life Is Average. F*** My Life was fun for the schadenfreude, but this is genuinely nice and always makes me smile. Which I need today, as people are being stupid and mean about a mistake made (which wasn't really our fault: our dealing with a related problem merely highlighted it) on a day when the only people in the office were two inexperienced part-timers because the full timers were either on their day off or sick. My colleague tells me that 'you're not in trouble: you didn't do anything wrong' and yet somehow I'm being made inadvertently to feel it's my fault. Because there's nobody else to blame. She also tells me to 'not let it bother me' and 'forget about it', which I (knowing my predilection for worrying about things years after they occurred) am working very hard on doing. Except people keep on insisting on updating me on what's happening with it, and wandering about looking worried and going, 'Well, I just don't know what went wrong/how this happened'. And the people who are being mean about it are going to be sent a big bill because it is their problem, not ours. So they will again get mean and nasty and I will inevitably be CC'd into all the nasty e-mails going around.
Why can't everyone just be nice about things? Goddammit, I did my job, and I followed procedure. I wasn't as careful as I could have been and I'll learn from that in the future, so I will check everything with my line manager, but I did what I am paid for and have nothing to be ashamed about. So why do I feel ashamed?
Why can't everyone just be nice about things? Goddammit, I did my job, and I followed procedure. I wasn't as careful as I could have been and I'll learn from that in the future, so I will check everything with my line manager, but I did what I am paid for and have nothing to be ashamed about. So why do I feel ashamed?