God...
Im starting to think eather he hates me and im going to hell or there is no such thing. If there was... why would he want me to suffer this much. Why would everything I had going and wanted go wrong? Its bullshit. I dont deserve this. No one does. I fucking deleted every e-mail and his phone number from my phone. Thats how pissed off I am. Im not pissed tho. Im hurt. To love someone as much as I do and have them not love you the same way hurts more then anything.