Why....
WHY!!!! just why. i love you. i love you more then you know. You were the only thing I had. The only thing i believed it. and its over. its over and nothing matters. There is nothing left for me anymore. You were the only thing worth living for... you were the only one who loved me... but you didnt. im sorry. I just wnated to talk to you. Thtas all i wanted.
I want to die. MOre then I ever have. I have no one and nothing to live for any more. I AM NOTHING! IM USLESS AND I WANT TO DIE! You prolly think im fucking kidding but im not. I really am not. Im going to Miami and I dont want to go!
Fuck it!!!! FUCK IT ALL! It doesnt matter. I wanted you to love me. thats all i have ever wanted. why... why does everyhting not work. why is everyhing so horrible. why am i still here. just why. thats all i have is why!!
If there was really a god... why would he fucking do this to me!!! WHY! WHY WOULD YOU MAKE MY LIFE SO HORRIBLE!!! WHY!!!! god i hate it. i cant take it anymore. its getting to me... I promised tho.. i promisd him and steve. but is it worth it? do they even matter? should I care anymore...
you were so perfect... i thought you loved me. i just wanted you to love me... that was all. Im so sorry I didnt listen. I just wanted to talk to you. I missed you. I just loved you. If you could only see... if you could only feel what I feel all the time. every second of every fucking day. its always the same. i really do need help. i cant help it... im trying not to... I want to so bad. It would make it go away. It would just die like I want to... Im so sorry!!! im sorry! im sorry.
I want to die. MOre then I ever have. I have no one and nothing to live for any more. I AM NOTHING! IM USLESS AND I WANT TO DIE! You prolly think im fucking kidding but im not. I really am not. Im going to Miami and I dont want to go!
Fuck it!!!! FUCK IT ALL! It doesnt matter. I wanted you to love me. thats all i have ever wanted. why... why does everyhting not work. why is everyhing so horrible. why am i still here. just why. thats all i have is why!!
If there was really a god... why would he fucking do this to me!!! WHY! WHY WOULD YOU MAKE MY LIFE SO HORRIBLE!!! WHY!!!! god i hate it. i cant take it anymore. its getting to me... I promised tho.. i promisd him and steve. but is it worth it? do they even matter? should I care anymore...
you were so perfect... i thought you loved me. i just wanted you to love me... that was all. Im so sorry I didnt listen. I just wanted to talk to you. I missed you. I just loved you. If you could only see... if you could only feel what I feel all the time. every second of every fucking day. its always the same. i really do need help. i cant help it... im trying not to... I want to so bad. It would make it go away. It would just die like I want to... Im so sorry!!! im sorry! im sorry.