2004...I have declared it...The Year of Suffering...
Ok, you know how the Chinese have a name for every year? You know, year of the chicken, year of the dog, year of the dragon, year of the ox, etc?
Ok, well I've decided that I will give each year it's own name to correspond with said events. I have decided that 2004 was the year of suffering for every person that I was personally connected to, including myself. The last time I suffered that much was 1990, and that was the year that my dad died...so needless to say it's been awhile. I haven't been able to post due to lack of internet. I actually left California early due to several issues, which I will disclose at a time which is more convenient to me and when I'm not borrowing a computer. I actually left California on December 28, instead of January 15. I was so stressed and unhappy I think I was honestly about to pull the trigger. When you start constantly fantacizing about overdosing or running in front of a truck, you have a fucking problem. I've only been in Houston four days and I feel like a different person. It's like all the stress just fell away. And even though I was really worried at first about Tom (the guy my roommate moved into our apartment in my abscence) he's been really helpful and has become an indispensable part of our lives. I can't imagine being here without him now. Even though I'm very happy for them it really isn't helping when it comes to my lack of a husband. But, I'll live. Even though I know I'll never really be able to exact revenge on them, considering Jason will only be here for about two weeks on his mid-tour, and the two "lovebirds" will be here all year. So, ah well. I like seeing them affectionate, just not too affectionate, for the simple fact that while I'm exceedingly overjoyed for them, it makes me excessively lonely. I'm really loving Houston, I'm so much happier here, the people here are fucking amazing and so willing to help and befriend you. Everything here is BIGGER....LITERALLY!!!! EVERYTHING!!!! OMFG!!! IKEA!!! SENSORY OVERLOAD!!!!!!!!! Anyhow, this post is becoming a rant. I will be pertaining internet access soon and hopefully will be talking to you all on AIM, Yahoo, and LJ soon.
Love you all,
Khat
PS- I'm drinking a $200 bottle of wine (that's how fucking nice these people are, they'll open a $200 bottle of wine for you) and if you don't have my AIM or Yahoo, fucking email me.
XXX
Ok, well I've decided that I will give each year it's own name to correspond with said events. I have decided that 2004 was the year of suffering for every person that I was personally connected to, including myself. The last time I suffered that much was 1990, and that was the year that my dad died...so needless to say it's been awhile. I haven't been able to post due to lack of internet. I actually left California early due to several issues, which I will disclose at a time which is more convenient to me and when I'm not borrowing a computer. I actually left California on December 28, instead of January 15. I was so stressed and unhappy I think I was honestly about to pull the trigger. When you start constantly fantacizing about overdosing or running in front of a truck, you have a fucking problem. I've only been in Houston four days and I feel like a different person. It's like all the stress just fell away. And even though I was really worried at first about Tom (the guy my roommate moved into our apartment in my abscence) he's been really helpful and has become an indispensable part of our lives. I can't imagine being here without him now. Even though I'm very happy for them it really isn't helping when it comes to my lack of a husband. But, I'll live. Even though I know I'll never really be able to exact revenge on them, considering Jason will only be here for about two weeks on his mid-tour, and the two "lovebirds" will be here all year. So, ah well. I like seeing them affectionate, just not too affectionate, for the simple fact that while I'm exceedingly overjoyed for them, it makes me excessively lonely. I'm really loving Houston, I'm so much happier here, the people here are fucking amazing and so willing to help and befriend you. Everything here is BIGGER....LITERALLY!!!! EVERYTHING!!!! OMFG!!! IKEA!!! SENSORY OVERLOAD!!!!!!!!! Anyhow, this post is becoming a rant. I will be pertaining internet access soon and hopefully will be talking to you all on AIM, Yahoo, and LJ soon.
Love you all,
Khat
PS- I'm drinking a $200 bottle of wine (that's how fucking nice these people are, they'll open a $200 bottle of wine for you) and if you don't have my AIM or Yahoo, fucking email me.
XXX