Guh!!!!
I dunno what to do!!..well i do know what to do...i just dunno if i wanna do it!!
as i said previously, ive got this job interview with gamestation on tuesday...and i dunno if i want the job Y+Y
Basically its a part time temporary job. also it'l be the first time i go to a job where everyone else has worked there longer? (except for royal mail, but i worked alongside 2 other new people at xmas) so im worried im gunna be kinda outta the loop, and the fact that its kinda smelly looking guys that already work there..im worried il get pissed off and stuff >.<
ALSO
i applied for a permanent full time job at a new student union bar where they are hiring all staff/roles. so it would be starting fresh with everyone again, therd be no kinda...holier than thou attitude which i liked at my other job...except quiz, because everyone already knew each other from when it was 'samantha's'.
interviews are being held friday and saturday, so i should hear back from them tomorow or tuesday (in theory) as to wether i have an interview or not.
and im like....gah >.< i dunno what to do, well i know i should go to the Gamestation interview, because its there!, its a definate interview!!..but... i dont know if i even want that job, at first when i saw it i was like WOOO a gaming job, perfect.... but..its really just sales..not that i dont mind it, but i kinda wanna take a step away from that :/ as ive clearly not been happy with it in the past, also if i put my mind to it.. i really dont know all that much about games...ive got knowledge of like mega drive and N64 titles...but fuck..i know nothing about current games!! im too drawn tot he older style games, than the new HD fantastic MASSIVE games... so if someone asked me about like..a ps3 game..i'd be jiggerd! (i know its something you'd pick up by working but...egh :/)
Where as if i could get this job at the student union bar, its flexible hours (basically you say how many hours minimum/maximum you want, and they find if it fits in with others who have applied. and i'd get to interact with people more..i dont need to have knowledge on one subject, id just need to be able to hold a conversation, take orders and be genrally welcoming..... but then.... if i get given a waitressing job there...or even a bar job...what do i do XD..ive never done that before, i dunno if i can do any of that XD
yeah, im beating myself up, the whole 'i am not worthy, i will never suceed' thing... but...
GAH!
my parents dont care what i do, as long as ive got money for the rent basically ¬¬
murrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....i hate the fact theres so little choice of jobs at the mo.... i need to be less picky and just DO IT!!!
BAH!...laters
xxx
as i said previously, ive got this job interview with gamestation on tuesday...and i dunno if i want the job Y+Y
Basically its a part time temporary job. also it'l be the first time i go to a job where everyone else has worked there longer? (except for royal mail, but i worked alongside 2 other new people at xmas) so im worried im gunna be kinda outta the loop, and the fact that its kinda smelly looking guys that already work there..im worried il get pissed off and stuff >.<
ALSO
i applied for a permanent full time job at a new student union bar where they are hiring all staff/roles. so it would be starting fresh with everyone again, therd be no kinda...holier than thou attitude which i liked at my other job...except quiz, because everyone already knew each other from when it was 'samantha's'.
interviews are being held friday and saturday, so i should hear back from them tomorow or tuesday (in theory) as to wether i have an interview or not.
and im like....gah >.< i dunno what to do, well i know i should go to the Gamestation interview, because its there!, its a definate interview!!..but... i dont know if i even want that job, at first when i saw it i was like WOOO a gaming job, perfect.... but..its really just sales..not that i dont mind it, but i kinda wanna take a step away from that :/ as ive clearly not been happy with it in the past, also if i put my mind to it.. i really dont know all that much about games...ive got knowledge of like mega drive and N64 titles...but fuck..i know nothing about current games!! im too drawn tot he older style games, than the new HD fantastic MASSIVE games... so if someone asked me about like..a ps3 game..i'd be jiggerd! (i know its something you'd pick up by working but...egh :/)
Where as if i could get this job at the student union bar, its flexible hours (basically you say how many hours minimum/maximum you want, and they find if it fits in with others who have applied. and i'd get to interact with people more..i dont need to have knowledge on one subject, id just need to be able to hold a conversation, take orders and be genrally welcoming..... but then.... if i get given a waitressing job there...or even a bar job...what do i do XD..ive never done that before, i dunno if i can do any of that XD
yeah, im beating myself up, the whole 'i am not worthy, i will never suceed' thing... but...
GAH!
my parents dont care what i do, as long as ive got money for the rent basically ¬¬
murrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....i hate the fact theres so little choice of jobs at the mo.... i need to be less picky and just DO IT!!!
BAH!...laters
xxx