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something interesting that has happened....not much.
i wasn't able to go online for a while. jim and i got into a big argument one night. he left and i left to my mothers. i came back the next morning to find out that he told his sister it was over for he and i. i didn't know what to do so i left around 10:30am and didn't come home till about 11:30pm. all i did was go for a walk around the neighborhood...a couple times. he came home two minutes later. i said to him "this is a simple yes or no question. do you want to leave me?" we talked and he said that his sister misunderstood him in some way. friends from my old school called and asked "is it true?" i said no. girls at his school asked him if it was true, he said no "we are still together!" he almost beat up some guy for starting the rumor.
my mother is going to help furnish my new bigger room, because she said she wants to. the trip to santa barbara is still on from what know. fluff, i am so hungry :)oh that is another thing....fluff....i am not cursing from now on! well i am trying not to...wonder how long that will be. someone keeps going into my room and taking my stuff and it is really starting to bother me! tonight i am going to instal a dead bolt on my door and someone doesn't like oh fluffing well! i am not going to have someone steal my stuff because they are bored or hate me!
and it doesnt' matter because i know who it is....jims sister! the only sister that steals in this house and the only sister who will steal from her other sister and brother and fiance!
my ex came back from his mission early. he didn't even last a year let alone a month! the missionaries sent him back for something dumb and not true. i heard from his sis that the first thing he asked was "how's let? is she coming today?" his sister asked what i did to him to make him always think of me...i said "i did nothing to that guy!" oh well whatever!
i am really excited to be going to santa barbara....4 days including today that i will be leaving to go to santa barbara!!! i have never been soooo excited to go back then i am right now. no one should be expecting too much...i am still the same! i think i am ugly and fat but everyone thinks i am cute and not fat but not skinny...i like how people say that! not fat but not skinny, lol. i like who i am, if someone doesn't like it then oh well, i am not trying to make any more friends.
jims dad and i talked the other night and he thinks he knows why i don't really mingle any more or so often. he thinks i am going through depression...i agree a little. i don't go to school, i am not working right now, i don't really talk to any of my friends...when i get depressed i go and sit in the van and think about a lot of stuff. i don't let my anger out that much. yesterday i kind of let out 2 weeks worth of anger out on jims sister...i kind of told her to "fuck off" and "she has a fucking stick so far up her ass her heads at a point" and i thought of telling her that "no one likes you because you are the 'foreman' and none of us kids are going to listen to her at all from now on!"
but i didn't tell her....yet. jims little sister gave me my cats first coller when we first got him...it is sooooo cute and tiny...it is about two of my fingers wide all the way around. i am weird...i put it on my purse so that it is with me every where i go....well i think i will go now....much love to everyone....later for now!
i wasn't able to go online for a while. jim and i got into a big argument one night. he left and i left to my mothers. i came back the next morning to find out that he told his sister it was over for he and i. i didn't know what to do so i left around 10:30am and didn't come home till about 11:30pm. all i did was go for a walk around the neighborhood...a couple times. he came home two minutes later. i said to him "this is a simple yes or no question. do you want to leave me?" we talked and he said that his sister misunderstood him in some way. friends from my old school called and asked "is it true?" i said no. girls at his school asked him if it was true, he said no "we are still together!" he almost beat up some guy for starting the rumor.
my mother is going to help furnish my new bigger room, because she said she wants to. the trip to santa barbara is still on from what know. fluff, i am so hungry :)oh that is another thing....fluff....i am not cursing from now on! well i am trying not to...wonder how long that will be. someone keeps going into my room and taking my stuff and it is really starting to bother me! tonight i am going to instal a dead bolt on my door and someone doesn't like oh fluffing well! i am not going to have someone steal my stuff because they are bored or hate me!
and it doesnt' matter because i know who it is....jims sister! the only sister that steals in this house and the only sister who will steal from her other sister and brother and fiance!
my ex came back from his mission early. he didn't even last a year let alone a month! the missionaries sent him back for something dumb and not true. i heard from his sis that the first thing he asked was "how's let? is she coming today?" his sister asked what i did to him to make him always think of me...i said "i did nothing to that guy!" oh well whatever!
i am really excited to be going to santa barbara....4 days including today that i will be leaving to go to santa barbara!!! i have never been soooo excited to go back then i am right now. no one should be expecting too much...i am still the same! i think i am ugly and fat but everyone thinks i am cute and not fat but not skinny...i like how people say that! not fat but not skinny, lol. i like who i am, if someone doesn't like it then oh well, i am not trying to make any more friends.
jims dad and i talked the other night and he thinks he knows why i don't really mingle any more or so often. he thinks i am going through depression...i agree a little. i don't go to school, i am not working right now, i don't really talk to any of my friends...when i get depressed i go and sit in the van and think about a lot of stuff. i don't let my anger out that much. yesterday i kind of let out 2 weeks worth of anger out on jims sister...i kind of told her to "fuck off" and "she has a fucking stick so far up her ass her heads at a point" and i thought of telling her that "no one likes you because you are the 'foreman' and none of us kids are going to listen to her at all from now on!"
but i didn't tell her....yet. jims little sister gave me my cats first coller when we first got him...it is sooooo cute and tiny...it is about two of my fingers wide all the way around. i am weird...i put it on my purse so that it is with me every where i go....well i think i will go now....much love to everyone....later for now!