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I am the most selfless person I know.
That is why I'm miserable. My god, I've railed against people thinking like I do for many years, and it's THOSE people who are much more selfish than I am. The irony of it all.... What's confused me all along is their praise of the "selfless man," though. They claim to be selfless, but they're as selfish as I want to be, but am not. But by proclaiming myself to be selfish, I alienate myself from them. God!
My god.
One of the great lines from Batman even said it: "It's our actions that define who we are." How could I have been so blind to it all? Somewhere, Rand is laughing at me. And I deserve it.
That is why I'm miserable. My god, I've railed against people thinking like I do for many years, and it's THOSE people who are much more selfish than I am. The irony of it all.... What's confused me all along is their praise of the "selfless man," though. They claim to be selfless, but they're as selfish as I want to be, but am not. But by proclaiming myself to be selfish, I alienate myself from them. God!
My god.
One of the great lines from Batman even said it: "It's our actions that define who we are." How could I have been so blind to it all? Somewhere, Rand is laughing at me. And I deserve it.