Rage!
I get gov't assistance since I make so little and have trouble working a full time job without panic attacks and breakdowns that can take me out of work/life for YEARS at a time. They won't give me disability, and I am not eligible for health benefits, I just get help with food. With some digging I discovered I also get "Women's Health" assistance, which SHOULD give me access to those sucky yearly appointments and tests all us females need to ward off cancer. So I call an office to try to schedule an appointment, and they inform me they only take that coverage as payment/insurance if I'm pregnant. WTF. NO WONDER low income people have so many kids - you literally cannot get help unless you are pregnant and/or already have kids. Our system is so screwed up. Lets only help poor people who are making more poor people who will need more help! And people wonder why this country is SO FUCKED UP. ARGH. I literally feel like crying with the unfairness/stupidity of it. If you're responsible you get left behind, where if you don't care about putting your own future kids in bad situations and contributing to overpopulation the planet literally cannot handle you get handouts. (Note I'm not saying they shouldn't get help - those babies have a right to help, and their moms do too whether I think they're irresponsible or not - I just think everyone should help each other out equally! Or maybe you should get perks for being, yanno, smart about things.)
In calmer news I got a couple "homework" books from the library. One is about rebuilding credit, and the other is about "Least Stressful Jobs". If I want to ramp up how much work I do, I really need to keep in mind my limitations and find something that suits me best. I do not need another breakdown. I don't want to put Zack through that, it has ruined relationships before. Not to mention ruining my own life for years at a time. I noticed graphic designers are not in the book's list. :P What I am doing now IS on the list, but it's not reliable, doesn't pay well, and the physical/health risks are not really nice. Animal trainers are on the list, but that's a high degree of people-skills I'm not sure if I possess. I may ask one of my coworkers who is a dog-trainer more about that. The other possibilities that I find somewhat interesting are working in a bakery or training as a massuese. The book breaks everything down and rates things by category, personality type, strengths and weaknesses, average payrate, and even job availability and predicted growth. A lot of the jobs simply won't work for me. (It seems many construction jobs are considered low stress!) Those 3 are the only ones that really stand out and are actually feasible (though I have no training or background in 2/3), but I'll keep browsing.
In calmer news I got a couple "homework" books from the library. One is about rebuilding credit, and the other is about "Least Stressful Jobs". If I want to ramp up how much work I do, I really need to keep in mind my limitations and find something that suits me best. I do not need another breakdown. I don't want to put Zack through that, it has ruined relationships before. Not to mention ruining my own life for years at a time. I noticed graphic designers are not in the book's list. :P What I am doing now IS on the list, but it's not reliable, doesn't pay well, and the physical/health risks are not really nice. Animal trainers are on the list, but that's a high degree of people-skills I'm not sure if I possess. I may ask one of my coworkers who is a dog-trainer more about that. The other possibilities that I find somewhat interesting are working in a bakery or training as a massuese. The book breaks everything down and rates things by category, personality type, strengths and weaknesses, average payrate, and even job availability and predicted growth. A lot of the jobs simply won't work for me. (It seems many construction jobs are considered low stress!) Those 3 are the only ones that really stand out and are actually feasible (though I have no training or background in 2/3), but I'll keep browsing.