o man what did i do.?

[kittiesweetness]

have u ever lied to someone so u wouldnt get hurt.. or hurt anyone else... but ur truly hurting urself... i have and did... but i think it was the right thing right now... i mean i've been holding those feeling back for so long.. i guess they can just disappear again... its gonna be so hard to see him with other girls because i have feeling for him but i'll just have to get over it.... i guess this is what i get from all the years i told everyone that "i just wanted to BE friends" i mean yeah i do wanna be friends but theres a few of them i would love to be more then friends with but i'm so scared of what will happen and if i'll get hurt .. i cant take getting hurt again... once again i believe im gonna be single for ever... i cant be like other girls and sleep and make out with guys just because... but maybe i should start...

just thoughts...

i'll be alright... =(