I am in the worst mood ever...
When am i ever happy? I feel like im never happy anymore. What is the fucking deal with me? I mean even sean does really good things for me and im happy for what, i dunno just not long. I am getting tired of him not wanting to do things on his days off. I understand that hes tired but i know a buttfucking load of people who are older than us that go out and do things. I'm just so fucking annoyed that he goes to bed at 8 or 7pm at night that is if his work schedule is during the day. If its at night well i understand more but i never see him at all. He says he sees me which is true but i do see him more than i was seeing him before. I'm tired of living here like were fucking seniors.
Also i hate sierra vista, its much worse then hopewell. They have some simalarities. But i would prefer to live in hopewell. I can't wait to move back to the east coast. I know i've only been here almost 5 months but im starting to miss everything. I miss my mom the most(i miss everyone else too but im really close to my mom) I hate that the effing gas prices have gone up cause now im not even sure if were going to come to va for a week during christmas. Delta is charing 50 dollars a fucking piece of luggage. So with me and sean thats 100 dollars right there. Also If its during christmas i know that we will need another extra bag for presents and etc.
I'm also trying to concive a child with sean. I really don't see it happening. I now know how infertil women and men feel. I feel like crying everyday about it. I don't understand why i can't get pregnant. I'm sick of everyone and everything right now. I hate this apartment i want to move. I want to move back to virginia. I know i'll still complain no matter where i am at but atleast thats where home is.
Also i hate sierra vista, its much worse then hopewell. They have some simalarities. But i would prefer to live in hopewell. I can't wait to move back to the east coast. I know i've only been here almost 5 months but im starting to miss everything. I miss my mom the most(i miss everyone else too but im really close to my mom) I hate that the effing gas prices have gone up cause now im not even sure if were going to come to va for a week during christmas. Delta is charing 50 dollars a fucking piece of luggage. So with me and sean thats 100 dollars right there. Also If its during christmas i know that we will need another extra bag for presents and etc.
I'm also trying to concive a child with sean. I really don't see it happening. I now know how infertil women and men feel. I feel like crying everyday about it. I don't understand why i can't get pregnant. I'm sick of everyone and everything right now. I hate this apartment i want to move. I want to move back to virginia. I know i'll still complain no matter where i am at but atleast thats where home is.