eh...
so yea today was a bad day for me...it felt like all the teachers where ignoring me and then i felt like mark was ignoring me...like during third when i tryed talking to him he would turn around and talk to ariel or talk over me when i was talking...then he would always walk in front of me...like i kno he needs to talk to other ppl but when he practically doesnt talk to me all damn day that is pretty shitty...sorry but im like...i never get to see him and third was supposed to be our time and now we hang out wit ariel i mean shes cool but like...it seems hes more interested in everyone b4 hes interested in me...like today he talked to chloe all day but then he walked me to my class...and i tryed to talk to him or hold his hand he would just shrug me off or walk faster it hurt...then i couldnt deal wit it so i walked a different way since it wouldnt hav mattered if i where there or not...and i tryed to not tear up but i did and ariel saw it...and now mark knos and i never intended for him to kno it bothered me...but its not gonna change so i best get used to it...and there was this time when i said love u but he didnt say it back...but he may not hav heard it...idk...im just so confused right now and angry and annoyed and hurt...bc i love him so much but then...it like everyone comes before me to him and hes the first one on my list i just hate that its not a shared thought...but its ok cuz ill do anything if it means bein sad then so be it bc i love him...man im such an idiot...