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right this is for any of my online bunnies who actually give a shit
at the moment im not sure which ones do but i think ill find out soon enough
im havin a bad week dont ask why coz i wont tell most but on top of all the normal shit of life i have people online thinkin they can u give me shit for bein me and ill actually care wot they think wen they can say wot they like and i really dont mind coz they dont know shit. then theres those few people whos opinions matter to me alot and wen it cums to them at the moment i cant say anythin right. Sum1 put it brilliantly last night " honey youve got the same problem iv got the whole world sucks, sumdays we all wish we cud erase a month or so" so i thought yeah i wish i cud iv said a couple of things here and there that i know i shudnt have.
So i did any post iv made on any message board etc in the last month iv deleted now i realise this may confuse a lot of people but it just seemed like the right thing to do. So now its all gone. Lets see wot happens now i wonder if any1 will notice well actually considerin how much i post i think itd be difficult not to notice especially for those people that i was mid conversation with.
for my long lost friend how cud u leave
did u know wot u were sayin wen u said it did u know wot it wud do
did u really mean it was it ever true
did u mean to spoil it did u mean to cause this
do u really hate me wot im i supposed think
i didnt mean to hurt you its just the way things were
u had ur life i had mine we were no longer like that
it had all gone away things have changed, im that the girl i was,
mine for the better and urs too for a while im sorry that fell apart
now ur mad coz im still happy i dont long for how it was
i dont want that back or maybe though i do just a little
but none of thats important ive got so much to do
theres so many things now that are nothing to do with you
i have my responsiblities i wud the girl u knew have said that
i cant tell u the answers coz honey i dont know
but i know i did last time u asked it wasnt a lie i cudnt do that
not to you not after it all not after i luved u for so long
u never understood the hurt u did wen u got with her
the first girl who cud take you from me the others were just toys
i wanted u to be happy i really really did but my heart
well thats another matter i knew id lost u i thought forever
u were going to marry her then itd never be the same
i know i am with my darlin but he still lets me love you
his jealousy doesnt stop me huggin you coz i dont know wot hell say
right from the start she made you choose and you chose her
i dont know if i can forgive you for that i want to
but its bin so long i cant really remember us my heart has shut it out
and now u want to open it for me to let you in you tell me that you need me
but i needed you back then where were you wen i needed you
why dont you tell me that why cant you say ur sorry
not that it will make it all ok but i think that a deserve that
after all you broke my heart u said ud always love me
then off u went with her and left me all alone things are better now
but u know how hard things were back then you know i was alone
its bin two years since then and now u want it bak that thing we had
that thing i cant explain the friendship that meant everythin
to us both for far too long u saved my life and iv saved urs
and so wot if wen u asked i didnt know its bin 2 years
since u last said that to me and last time the answer was id die for u
but i thought ud do the same but all that was before now everythin has changed
but still u needed me and im here now i arent i, i dont know why
it doesnt mean i didnt care just coz i wasnt here to pick up ur pieces
this time iv bin here all the others and where were you to pick up mine
wen i hated it so much i thought of dyin just to make it go away
but still im here now it doesnt mean i didnt care
but this doesnt mean i do dont make me answer that coz it wud break my heart
its bin so long since u have asked how was i to react i cant say yes
id have to admit i never stopped even after u walked away
or watch ur face as i say no i dont know wot ud do but u need me now
so let it pass ill answer it one day i know that ill be true
just give me time coz wot else can we do
at the moment im not sure which ones do but i think ill find out soon enough
im havin a bad week dont ask why coz i wont tell most but on top of all the normal shit of life i have people online thinkin they can u give me shit for bein me and ill actually care wot they think wen they can say wot they like and i really dont mind coz they dont know shit. then theres those few people whos opinions matter to me alot and wen it cums to them at the moment i cant say anythin right. Sum1 put it brilliantly last night " honey youve got the same problem iv got the whole world sucks, sumdays we all wish we cud erase a month or so" so i thought yeah i wish i cud iv said a couple of things here and there that i know i shudnt have.
So i did any post iv made on any message board etc in the last month iv deleted now i realise this may confuse a lot of people but it just seemed like the right thing to do. So now its all gone. Lets see wot happens now i wonder if any1 will notice well actually considerin how much i post i think itd be difficult not to notice especially for those people that i was mid conversation with.
for my long lost friend how cud u leave
did u know wot u were sayin wen u said it did u know wot it wud do
did u really mean it was it ever true
did u mean to spoil it did u mean to cause this
do u really hate me wot im i supposed think
i didnt mean to hurt you its just the way things were
u had ur life i had mine we were no longer like that
it had all gone away things have changed, im that the girl i was,
mine for the better and urs too for a while im sorry that fell apart
now ur mad coz im still happy i dont long for how it was
i dont want that back or maybe though i do just a little
but none of thats important ive got so much to do
theres so many things now that are nothing to do with you
i have my responsiblities i wud the girl u knew have said that
i cant tell u the answers coz honey i dont know
but i know i did last time u asked it wasnt a lie i cudnt do that
not to you not after it all not after i luved u for so long
u never understood the hurt u did wen u got with her
the first girl who cud take you from me the others were just toys
i wanted u to be happy i really really did but my heart
well thats another matter i knew id lost u i thought forever
u were going to marry her then itd never be the same
i know i am with my darlin but he still lets me love you
his jealousy doesnt stop me huggin you coz i dont know wot hell say
right from the start she made you choose and you chose her
i dont know if i can forgive you for that i want to
but its bin so long i cant really remember us my heart has shut it out
and now u want to open it for me to let you in you tell me that you need me
but i needed you back then where were you wen i needed you
why dont you tell me that why cant you say ur sorry
not that it will make it all ok but i think that a deserve that
after all you broke my heart u said ud always love me
then off u went with her and left me all alone things are better now
but u know how hard things were back then you know i was alone
its bin two years since then and now u want it bak that thing we had
that thing i cant explain the friendship that meant everythin
to us both for far too long u saved my life and iv saved urs
and so wot if wen u asked i didnt know its bin 2 years
since u last said that to me and last time the answer was id die for u
but i thought ud do the same but all that was before now everythin has changed
but still u needed me and im here now i arent i, i dont know why
it doesnt mean i didnt care just coz i wasnt here to pick up ur pieces
this time iv bin here all the others and where were you to pick up mine
wen i hated it so much i thought of dyin just to make it go away
but still im here now it doesnt mean i didnt care
but this doesnt mean i do dont make me answer that coz it wud break my heart
its bin so long since u have asked how was i to react i cant say yes
id have to admit i never stopped even after u walked away
or watch ur face as i say no i dont know wot ud do but u need me now
so let it pass ill answer it one day i know that ill be true
just give me time coz wot else can we do