Called out by name...
An uncharacteristic public post because there are LJ-less people that need to see this....
The past few months have been pretty awful. With the collection of stresses and illness and solitude and family issues I have really been at the end of my rope. There have been a few people that have really been there for me and really helped me to hold on and I appreciate it more than you imagine. So, I figured it was time to call them out by name instead of just leaving lumps of occasional appreciation.
The LJ-less John Foster- for late night chats, brunch, the symphony, and bars and jokes and general calls to see what is up in my life. Thank you for being that tether. Thank you for making me get out of my hole and into the world from time to time. I'm really looking forward to next Saturday.
pitbullpotpie for helping me get through when all I had went to my sick kitty. All will be settled soon. I promise.
ashesngolddust and vamp_de_roux- My long distance angels and my two closest friends. The women who remind me often that I am a good woman and I deserve better than my life. Also the ones who remind me that I am the one who has to fight to make it better. You have made me keep my chin up so that I can remember that I need to get up and out.
fierce_rabbit and galbinus_caeli- the quiet forces that drop in just often enough to remind me that I have a strong and loving family even if it isn't the one related to me by blood.
victoria_lane- the distant beauty who reminds me that it can get worse and it can get better. I ave to work if I want the latter but it is always out there. She leads by example. A few years ago we "watched the Oscars together". We were actually both alone on our respective coasts and chatting on IM almost the whole ceremony. It was one of the best Oscar parties I ever had. :-)
And last but certainly not least- The LJ-less Hampton. So many people have chastised me for my continued friendship and involvement with you. But you are the one who calls out of the blue to chat. You are the one who has come over in the middle of the night when I was scared. You were the one by my side when the creepy teamster accosted me and I had to face the lawyers and what not. You are the one who has found me for late night coffee when I was lonely and isolated. You are the one to take me for movies and food and goes out of your way to make me laugh. Sure, you break my heart as often as you warm it but until others are the ones stepping up to be there for me the way you have then I think they need to stop criticizing my involvement with you. * So it seems I spoke too soon...C'est la vie
So, to all of you- Thank you. Thank you for being there for me...especially in these times that I have not known how to be there for myself. I am not out of the dark yet but I am beginning to believe there might be a light at the end. I love you all....