This is how messed up my life is.
So early I suppose I was taking things for granted. I was most worried about a relationship that I know is going to work out and everything is going to be ok. I don't know why I worried about it when life is fragile.
My grandpa that I haven't met but a time or perhaps two, is really sick. I knew he was really sick, but I think it's really the end now. And I'm worried about his suffering. And I'm worried about my mom's. I don't know what to say or do to make things better and I'm sure that I cannot. I don't handle death well and this will be my first grandparent that passes away and I'm not ready. I never got to know him. And I wanted to. And now I can't. I think that hurts worst of all.
I don't know what more to say.
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My grandpa that I haven't met but a time or perhaps two, is really sick. I knew he was really sick, but I think it's really the end now. And I'm worried about his suffering. And I'm worried about my mom's. I don't know what to say or do to make things better and I'm sure that I cannot. I don't handle death well and this will be my first grandparent that passes away and I'm not ready. I never got to know him. And I wanted to. And now I can't. I think that hurts worst of all.
I don't know what more to say.
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