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Eckankar
If I were to have a religion, I would probably choose something like this. It fits in with my perception of the spirit world, and doesn't have any crazy ideas tacked on to it. Not bad for a religion, eh?
In general, my spiritual development has taken a backseat in my life right now. Is that bad? Maybe. I feel like I have too many other issues to deal with right now. My mental energy is not infinite. It's better to focus on the task at hand now, isn't it? But then, will I ever get around to working on my spiritual growth? There's always something to deal with. If I decide that it's important to me, I'll have to take time out of my day. The payoff is probably worth it.
In some ways it would be nice to belong to an official religion. I hate the uncertainty of being agnostic. It would be nice to believe wholeheartedly in something. Even just for the peace of mind. But I wouldn't try to force myself into a religion if I didn't believe in it.
That's why I couldn't stay with Christianity. I just don't believe all of it. I can't just pick and choose what I like out of a religion, like my parents, and so many other people do. If you don't believe 100% of it, what's the point? You might as well make up your own religion, and call yourself that. Guess it makes people feel better to hide under the umbrella of an organized religion, even if only 10% of their beliefs jive with it.
So I left Christianity when I was, like...12. Dabbled in paganism, briefly, but decided it wasn't for me (though I still like the name "Rainbow Unicorn Starsong Faerie"--maybe I could legally change my name to that? Probably wouldn't fit in the boxes on forms, and things, but so what? I have a history of not fitting into boxes).
Whatever. I miss the security of having definite ideas about the afterlife and deities. I miss certainty.
If I were to have a religion, I would probably choose something like this. It fits in with my perception of the spirit world, and doesn't have any crazy ideas tacked on to it. Not bad for a religion, eh?
In general, my spiritual development has taken a backseat in my life right now. Is that bad? Maybe. I feel like I have too many other issues to deal with right now. My mental energy is not infinite. It's better to focus on the task at hand now, isn't it? But then, will I ever get around to working on my spiritual growth? There's always something to deal with. If I decide that it's important to me, I'll have to take time out of my day. The payoff is probably worth it.
In some ways it would be nice to belong to an official religion. I hate the uncertainty of being agnostic. It would be nice to believe wholeheartedly in something. Even just for the peace of mind. But I wouldn't try to force myself into a religion if I didn't believe in it.
That's why I couldn't stay with Christianity. I just don't believe all of it. I can't just pick and choose what I like out of a religion, like my parents, and so many other people do. If you don't believe 100% of it, what's the point? You might as well make up your own religion, and call yourself that. Guess it makes people feel better to hide under the umbrella of an organized religion, even if only 10% of their beliefs jive with it.
So I left Christianity when I was, like...12. Dabbled in paganism, briefly, but decided it wasn't for me (though I still like the name "Rainbow Unicorn Starsong Faerie"--maybe I could legally change my name to that? Probably wouldn't fit in the boxes on forms, and things, but so what? I have a history of not fitting into boxes).
Whatever. I miss the security of having definite ideas about the afterlife and deities. I miss certainty.