i guess it's finally hit me
As I am sitting here looking at facebook, I come across Harland in a new profile picture...with this new girl...of them making out...i can feel my heart in my throat.
When looking it, I feel raged, heartbroken, pissed, wanting, and unloved all at the same time. I can feel my tear ducks filling, I wanna just burst out crying, but I am holding back. I texted him saying that I guess I will have to get used to the fact to seeing him make out with other girls...he said i guess you do. I wanna punch him and her in the face.
YES I knew this was coming, I knew I would have to get used to this. At the beginning, I was just sitting around thinking, okay we are not together anymore, but now, i can really feel the hurt. He says we will keep a friendship. One, I don't know if I can do that anymore and...argh...it hurts...a lot.
I get told, why don't you date blah blah blah, oh you should go for blah blah blah, but here is the thing, I don't get thought of that way, or i'm in the friends zone.
I don't wanna be alone...I want to be held...slept next too...someone to wipe the tears from my eyes and say...its going to be alright..
When looking it, I feel raged, heartbroken, pissed, wanting, and unloved all at the same time. I can feel my tear ducks filling, I wanna just burst out crying, but I am holding back. I texted him saying that I guess I will have to get used to the fact to seeing him make out with other girls...he said i guess you do. I wanna punch him and her in the face.
YES I knew this was coming, I knew I would have to get used to this. At the beginning, I was just sitting around thinking, okay we are not together anymore, but now, i can really feel the hurt. He says we will keep a friendship. One, I don't know if I can do that anymore and...argh...it hurts...a lot.
I get told, why don't you date blah blah blah, oh you should go for blah blah blah, but here is the thing, I don't get thought of that way, or i'm in the friends zone.
I don't wanna be alone...I want to be held...slept next too...someone to wipe the tears from my eyes and say...its going to be alright..