the talk
So I yet again had another talk with my parents and amazingly it went a lot better than I thought. I got a lot of things off my chest and things that he thought was wrong, I told him the truth. He is very bad when it comes to assuming things, so hopefully that is changed. The biggest obsticle is where I am going to be living come this summer. My dad said that I was not given the offer to come back home, my mom wants me too of course, but neither of them want me to live with my grandparents. So basically it is like Jess has to live out on her own and struggle so her father can have more respect for me. They both think that me living with my grandparents is the worst thing that could happen. I don't understand why, because now they are in a HUGE war with them.
My parents and grandparents have never gotten along at all....
ANYWAYS so I now get to talk to my mother which is great and I get to see Bobby again. I don't know exactly stand with Bob to be honest. He said stuff, I said stuff, it was very interesting. It will just be awkward now more than anything with him. He even cried at times, but I couldn't stand to look at him.
Yes, I have built up anger that I do not show to anyone. That is why when I snap at someone, they are frightened because that isn't who I am. It is great hearing "Jess, is something wrong?" "No" "Well, you aren't smiling. Something has to be wrong." And most of the time it is. I hate HATE depending on others, just let me do it myself. I mean when I am around and you can tell that something is wrong, you can ask, and I might tell you. But sometimes I don't even tell my closest friends what I really feel. I am so afraid of rejection in every sense of the word. I don't like doing things that aren't me because I am afraid, no, petrified of what others will think. I did that once and I ended up getting beaten up everyday for it. FUN FUN.
That's why I take care of everyone, well at least try...I'm not doing anything to be nosy, but simply to be there for someone else because it takes me away from my own problems.
Eww, have to write a paper now, ugh...
My parents and grandparents have never gotten along at all....
ANYWAYS so I now get to talk to my mother which is great and I get to see Bobby again. I don't know exactly stand with Bob to be honest. He said stuff, I said stuff, it was very interesting. It will just be awkward now more than anything with him. He even cried at times, but I couldn't stand to look at him.
Yes, I have built up anger that I do not show to anyone. That is why when I snap at someone, they are frightened because that isn't who I am. It is great hearing "Jess, is something wrong?" "No" "Well, you aren't smiling. Something has to be wrong." And most of the time it is. I hate HATE depending on others, just let me do it myself. I mean when I am around and you can tell that something is wrong, you can ask, and I might tell you. But sometimes I don't even tell my closest friends what I really feel. I am so afraid of rejection in every sense of the word. I don't like doing things that aren't me because I am afraid, no, petrified of what others will think. I did that once and I ended up getting beaten up everyday for it. FUN FUN.
That's why I take care of everyone, well at least try...I'm not doing anything to be nosy, but simply to be there for someone else because it takes me away from my own problems.
Eww, have to write a paper now, ugh...