...down....
I have been feeling really down the couple of days.
I feel un-included, that I'm not wanted to be around, just a person who is there for someone to walk on.
I don't know why, but when people are mysteriously talking quietly with doors closed, I feel like I am the one who is getting talked about. I know I have no the best person and that I do have flaws, but I honestly just want to pass school and move on with life but now I don't think I am doing that right anymore. I just feel horrible, I even broke down today because I felt like no one ever wanted me to help with dancing, granted yes, I was even messing up and I shouldn't have but I honestly can't stand how lousy it is to get constantly nit picked all the time.
I think I'm honestly failing at life. I wanna just quit. The show, school, life, there is just too much for me to handle right now and still keep my head on straight. Is it bad that I just want to go to sleep and not wake up?
I try to tell everyone in some sort of way to see the silver lining. Be happy you got a part! You will get it! Just ignore it, it will get better! But it just seems like now that isn't even the right thing to say anymore.
People think I'm the girl who is always smiling and nothing can be wrong, in fact, i must be a good actress because I am down right miserable on the inside.
I feel un-included, that I'm not wanted to be around, just a person who is there for someone to walk on.
I don't know why, but when people are mysteriously talking quietly with doors closed, I feel like I am the one who is getting talked about. I know I have no the best person and that I do have flaws, but I honestly just want to pass school and move on with life but now I don't think I am doing that right anymore. I just feel horrible, I even broke down today because I felt like no one ever wanted me to help with dancing, granted yes, I was even messing up and I shouldn't have but I honestly can't stand how lousy it is to get constantly nit picked all the time.
I think I'm honestly failing at life. I wanna just quit. The show, school, life, there is just too much for me to handle right now and still keep my head on straight. Is it bad that I just want to go to sleep and not wake up?
I try to tell everyone in some sort of way to see the silver lining. Be happy you got a part! You will get it! Just ignore it, it will get better! But it just seems like now that isn't even the right thing to say anymore.
People think I'm the girl who is always smiling and nothing can be wrong, in fact, i must be a good actress because I am down right miserable on the inside.