Friends from my past re-surface.....
and its not a bad thing. I am saying that from my gut and my heart. So i had a best friend for 14 years. Celeste. Its not her. She still dead in my eyes and possibly the worst person ever, rotten to the core and probably mentally ill in some way. to be as cruel and manipulative as she was you would have to ave something wrong with you mentally. So i get my 1st apartment and i end up meeting tina. we hit it off, and most of the time our friendship was great. then it spiraled out of control and we went our seperate ways. we were both out of control to be honest and loads of drama. we saw each other at Nitzer ebb show and i went up to her(which totally freaked her out lol) and we been talking since. we both have mellowed, and well tech i am god mother of her daughter. wE Have agreed to take things slow to feel each other out. When celeste wasn't in the picture everything was good. every time celeste was around all hell broke loose with friends and the boyfriends she always tried or did sleep with. Anyway i think we have aged enough to have a mature relationship. shes married now too. i don't think she will be getting arrested stealing my identity. oh yea , i got stories. Though i have to carry a lot of responsibility because i allowed myself to be in these types of situations. I am glad to have another shot so long after i walked away from our friendship.
So new years i was sick. I brought down the new year. though ernie didn't look to upset to sit and relax and we did get to spend it with the baby. alka selzter cold wasnt even working. it was one of those colds where you constantly have a head ache and are so tired you barely can stay awake at all.... i mean i was so exhausted the past few days i been sleeping on and off every 4 hrs. it sucks! and muscling through the work outs is really hard. she adjusted the work out just a little bit but it still kicks my ass. i cant wait till i can kick this but i have an ear ache now so i dont think i will be feeling better for a few more days.
the flyers lost. shock i know. we totally choked at the end of the game. it was so disappointing. by the end of the game and such a close win we could of had i crashed. i love the flyers but we can be such blue ball teasers...
tomorrow we go to new hope! ernie gets to drive a steam engine under the instructions of the engineer of course. hes all excited.this is my big present to him for christmas. of course its bitter effing cold tomorrow.
we had lunch at my moms today. it was good. she has slowed down a lot. im actually getting worried of they are ok living on their own. im not sure what to do....i think i need to get help in form of a part time care taker. And i trust barely anyone and wont enlist the help of a stranger either, because to be honest most people are not honest. So i have a back up plan for now. i might start entertaining it.
my brother wants to rent his house in florida and rent a home in vermont. he is apparently done with florida. and in chris language that means he offended and got caught a lot. whatever. as long as he stays away from me. which he wont. he will eventually attempted contact. that is if he doesnt get his ass beat or the booze doesnt kill him first. he isnt going quietly...he never does.
thats it for now im so tired. im surprised i made it this far..........
So new years i was sick. I brought down the new year. though ernie didn't look to upset to sit and relax and we did get to spend it with the baby. alka selzter cold wasnt even working. it was one of those colds where you constantly have a head ache and are so tired you barely can stay awake at all.... i mean i was so exhausted the past few days i been sleeping on and off every 4 hrs. it sucks! and muscling through the work outs is really hard. she adjusted the work out just a little bit but it still kicks my ass. i cant wait till i can kick this but i have an ear ache now so i dont think i will be feeling better for a few more days.
the flyers lost. shock i know. we totally choked at the end of the game. it was so disappointing. by the end of the game and such a close win we could of had i crashed. i love the flyers but we can be such blue ball teasers...
tomorrow we go to new hope! ernie gets to drive a steam engine under the instructions of the engineer of course. hes all excited.this is my big present to him for christmas. of course its bitter effing cold tomorrow.
we had lunch at my moms today. it was good. she has slowed down a lot. im actually getting worried of they are ok living on their own. im not sure what to do....i think i need to get help in form of a part time care taker. And i trust barely anyone and wont enlist the help of a stranger either, because to be honest most people are not honest. So i have a back up plan for now. i might start entertaining it.
my brother wants to rent his house in florida and rent a home in vermont. he is apparently done with florida. and in chris language that means he offended and got caught a lot. whatever. as long as he stays away from me. which he wont. he will eventually attempted contact. that is if he doesnt get his ass beat or the booze doesnt kill him first. he isnt going quietly...he never does.
thats it for now im so tired. im surprised i made it this far..........