Jun 13, 2005 14:46
Yep. I'm going to Utah. For like, a week or so, because i'm fed up with my mother and I know that my mother is fed up with me. It's a vicious cycle. She hates me and says that she's contstantly dissapointed in me.
Gee, thanks.
So, since Blake's father lives in Utah and he's going up there and they'd like to meet me since he talks about me to them all the time, yadayadayada, he's buying me a bus/plane ticket to go with him. I'm not sure which. It's up to him. But there's one teeny, tiny problem.
I have yet to ask either of my parents.
But that's okay. I'm asking my dad tomorrow. I'm gonna say, "Look, I need a break from your wife, she hates me, and she wants me gone. So can I please go with Blake to Utah for a week? See if she'll really miss me?"
She actually told me that as soon as I turn 18, she's kicking me out. But if i'd like to leave sooner, she does not care. So i'm going to take the innitiative and take an informal vacation from her. I'm going to ask my father not to tell her i'm leaving so she thinks i've left. But it's no biggie. I really want him to give me permission, so there isn't this whole legal blahblahblah thing when I come home. I can't stand living here. I'd really like to get away from my mother and her crap that i'm ruining her life, she hates me, i'm making her have a nervous breakdown, she wants to move out and leave everyone, fuck me and my lies, blahblahblah.
I am a terrible child.
XOXO
-Kitty