Looking back
All those times that I thought I was really happy with someone. That the person I was with was "the one for me". That I had finally meet "Mr. Right". There were so many times that I thought I was "in love". I now know that all that I have gone thur was just to prepare me for what I would have in the future. I can't get over the fact that I am so happy. It seems to good to be true at times. I have everything I want, a man who loves me more then anything, a house, 4 kids (3 cats and 1 dog), my cars. Not to mention that I love Mike more then anything. I would have never guessed that I would be this "in love". The feeling is so amazing. I still find myself smiling when Mike floats into my head!
Yesterday I saw a spark in Mike's eyes. It was only for a second. But it was there. I haven't seen that in a while now. It was the coolest thing. I haven't been that close with someone to notice anything like that. I have shared somethings with some people, but I have never really bared my soul to someone. With Mike ....... let me think on how to put this. I know Mike.......grrrrrr..... I know what I want to say, yet I can't get it out. I guess.......grrrrr..... I need sleep.
Stupid DVD. I guess what I am trying to get at is that I would have never guessed that I would have found someone to love me for me. I know and I am sure I have said some of these things before, but now that I have looked back on things, I realize that I was wrong about all that. I have changed so much in the last year it is unreal who I am today. I am not the same person I was when Tim and I broke up, I am for sure not the same person I was when I was with Jay. I am ready to settle down now. You know do the whole married with 3 kids (human kids) thing. I haven't gone to the bar since November. I can't get over who I am now.
Sorry I am so tired right now. I'll try to do this another time.
~Mel
Yesterday I saw a spark in Mike's eyes. It was only for a second. But it was there. I haven't seen that in a while now. It was the coolest thing. I haven't been that close with someone to notice anything like that. I have shared somethings with some people, but I have never really bared my soul to someone. With Mike ....... let me think on how to put this. I know Mike.......grrrrrr..... I know what I want to say, yet I can't get it out. I guess.......grrrrr..... I need sleep.
Stupid DVD. I guess what I am trying to get at is that I would have never guessed that I would have found someone to love me for me. I know and I am sure I have said some of these things before, but now that I have looked back on things, I realize that I was wrong about all that. I have changed so much in the last year it is unreal who I am today. I am not the same person I was when Tim and I broke up, I am for sure not the same person I was when I was with Jay. I am ready to settle down now. You know do the whole married with 3 kids (human kids) thing. I haven't gone to the bar since November. I can't get over who I am now.
Sorry I am so tired right now. I'll try to do this another time.
~Mel