Just STOP, people!!!!
Everyone still finds some way to remind me of the relationship I had with Ryan... people are still asking me about it. Can't you people just stop? It's been a few weeks... stop.
I found so many things at camp that reminded me of him. Just things people would say and do. I cried during the talent show when two freshmen sang "My Immortal" by Evanescence. They reminded me of why I hate that song. Then, it was playing on the radio when I got back to the cabin and sat outside crying again.
Then, there's the Alter Bridge song on my CD... I absolutely love it, but I cry when I hear it (like right now).
I keep trying to tell myself that I have to move on and I have to forget about him.
It just hurts so much when I talk to him now or when I think about him. Just seeing his name upsets me.
I know there's nothing I can do, and that's what hurts the most.
I know I shouldn't love him, but I still love him.
There's no getting over him...
I would do anything to just be able to be with him again... anything. I would change the world for him, if I could. I would change anything about myself just for him. I would die for him.
Words can't express how I feel for him... he means more than the world to me.
We had so many dreams... such high hopes...
But, ending this is supposed to make him happy... and he tells me that he is.
As long as it makes him happy, I can risk being the most unhappy.
Anything for him.
"Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I never knew what it was to be alone, no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
Now I come home and I miss your face, so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight 'cause it comforts me"
- "In Loving Memory" by Alter Bridge
I found so many things at camp that reminded me of him. Just things people would say and do. I cried during the talent show when two freshmen sang "My Immortal" by Evanescence. They reminded me of why I hate that song. Then, it was playing on the radio when I got back to the cabin and sat outside crying again.
Then, there's the Alter Bridge song on my CD... I absolutely love it, but I cry when I hear it (like right now).
I keep trying to tell myself that I have to move on and I have to forget about him.
It just hurts so much when I talk to him now or when I think about him. Just seeing his name upsets me.
I know there's nothing I can do, and that's what hurts the most.
I know I shouldn't love him, but I still love him.
There's no getting over him...
I would do anything to just be able to be with him again... anything. I would change the world for him, if I could. I would change anything about myself just for him. I would die for him.
Words can't express how I feel for him... he means more than the world to me.
We had so many dreams... such high hopes...
But, ending this is supposed to make him happy... and he tells me that he is.
As long as it makes him happy, I can risk being the most unhappy.
Anything for him.
"Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly
I never knew what it was to be alone, no
'Cause you were always there for me
You were always home waiting
Now I come home and I miss your face, so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see
And I know you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight 'cause it comforts me"
- "In Loving Memory" by Alter Bridge