*~ ThE AwAkEnInG ~*
well mi last enrty was complete bullshit! haha jus kiddn! i mean, i meant it, but i cant nemore.....ill xplain in here sumwhere.....
well friday ROCKED! all day i spent w/ mi bestest friends in the world! we ate at the Bellview 2ce (spelled soOo rong, haha) n jus chilled n watched some talented kids all nite! the show ROCKED! i think i sang pretty well, n DAMN did i look hot in that dress, haha. Gianna sang like an angel, Greg n Stef were soOo cute, Zuino is the new sex symbol of gamp, haha, Dom was better then chris carabba, n Vacant Lot rocked the fukn house! durrn the whole day i was soOo happi! but of course that NEVER lasts w/ me. sum1, who i consider a friend, but at this point i hated him, sed some realli mean things. i guess i cant be mad for sum1 speakn the truth, but it hurt! Then mi lil Doritto Luis came up 2 me, saw i was upset about sumthn, sat on mi lap n sed, "Dom DOESNT want u...get over it alreadi! u kno who u shuld be w/, so go be w/ him!!!" evn tho that was the FARTHEST thing from wat i was upset about, tears jus started streamin dwn mi face. luis looked at me n smiled, n i laughed, cuz i knew he was rite! the nite after that went alil better, the talent show was over, n i was relieved!
sat nite was fun! i was over ashs house n waited for greg n jay 2 show up. it took me like a 1/2 hour to agree to wat ash n her mother made me wear, but wen i got to Nicolais party, i felt more comfortable, haha. esp after a few beers in me. me n greg hadda talk at mcdonalds b4 we went to the party. ya see...hes bin w/ his x for about 2 years, n all of a suddn it jus ended, i asked him how he felt n all. he told me that hes not in love w/ her nemore, but he will always care. he doesnt wana be w/ her nemore, cuz its over, n he knows that. hes NOT gon sit n be all upset about it, cuz theres no reason to be. he sed that hes movn on cuz he has 2, n he wants to. its over! i culdnt believe it, cuz i knew that thats deff XACTLY how dom feels. n greg told me thats how i need to feel! n he was rite!! we didnt get to the party til about 930 cuz kris n john took FOREVER, but im glad we atleast made it! i had ALOT of fun. i was like 1 outta 5 ppl who wasnt drunk there haha. i had mi share of drinks, but it takes ALOT for me 2 get drunk, n beer doesnt do it for me. it relaxed me tho. i danced w/ a bunch of ppl n i evn made jay dance, haha. it was sooo funni! i tricked him. "time of ur life" from dirty dancing came on n it starts out slow, so he danced w/ me thinkn it was a slow song, not knowing it gets all fast after the 1st like 20 secs, haha. i jus sang the song to him n tried to make him loosen up w/ marc, ha.
after the party, me ash dave greg n jay rode around til about 1230ish. ash sat w/ a case of coronas in her lap, left over from the party. we looked like a bunch of lush's, haha. wen me n ash got home i caled jay n we hadda LONG talk about fruit, haha! after that conversation ive NEVER felt more "unconfused" in mi life! i FINALLI kno xactly wat i need to do, n im gon be fine doin it! i kno wat i want n known that jay will be there bi mi side thruout it all lets me kno that ill get thru it! i kno wat i have 2 do now, n ill be doin it for some time to come, but after some time passes im not to sure wat mi next move will be. all i kno is, this time, its gon be PERFECT! for once, i honestly think im gon be happi. now absolutly NO1 is gon understand ne of this unless ur names are ashley or jason, but dont woprri abot it, u dont need to kno wats goin on. jus kno that for the 1st time in 3 months, IM DOIN FINE! im NOT confused in the least way. im happpi, n i feel as if a HUGE weight has bin lifted off me!
well ima go now. got lots to do 2nite b4 skool 2marrow. its a new week w/ a new outlook on things! IM HAPPI! love yas all<33333
P.S. sorry for wat i put in mi profile about u. i didnt mean it, n i regret it, but wat u sed n how u acted hurt...sorry! i hope things get better from here.....MoOsH<3
well friday ROCKED! all day i spent w/ mi bestest friends in the world! we ate at the Bellview 2ce (spelled soOo rong, haha) n jus chilled n watched some talented kids all nite! the show ROCKED! i think i sang pretty well, n DAMN did i look hot in that dress, haha. Gianna sang like an angel, Greg n Stef were soOo cute, Zuino is the new sex symbol of gamp, haha, Dom was better then chris carabba, n Vacant Lot rocked the fukn house! durrn the whole day i was soOo happi! but of course that NEVER lasts w/ me. sum1, who i consider a friend, but at this point i hated him, sed some realli mean things. i guess i cant be mad for sum1 speakn the truth, but it hurt! Then mi lil Doritto Luis came up 2 me, saw i was upset about sumthn, sat on mi lap n sed, "Dom DOESNT want u...get over it alreadi! u kno who u shuld be w/, so go be w/ him!!!" evn tho that was the FARTHEST thing from wat i was upset about, tears jus started streamin dwn mi face. luis looked at me n smiled, n i laughed, cuz i knew he was rite! the nite after that went alil better, the talent show was over, n i was relieved!
sat nite was fun! i was over ashs house n waited for greg n jay 2 show up. it took me like a 1/2 hour to agree to wat ash n her mother made me wear, but wen i got to Nicolais party, i felt more comfortable, haha. esp after a few beers in me. me n greg hadda talk at mcdonalds b4 we went to the party. ya see...hes bin w/ his x for about 2 years, n all of a suddn it jus ended, i asked him how he felt n all. he told me that hes not in love w/ her nemore, but he will always care. he doesnt wana be w/ her nemore, cuz its over, n he knows that. hes NOT gon sit n be all upset about it, cuz theres no reason to be. he sed that hes movn on cuz he has 2, n he wants to. its over! i culdnt believe it, cuz i knew that thats deff XACTLY how dom feels. n greg told me thats how i need to feel! n he was rite!! we didnt get to the party til about 930 cuz kris n john took FOREVER, but im glad we atleast made it! i had ALOT of fun. i was like 1 outta 5 ppl who wasnt drunk there haha. i had mi share of drinks, but it takes ALOT for me 2 get drunk, n beer doesnt do it for me. it relaxed me tho. i danced w/ a bunch of ppl n i evn made jay dance, haha. it was sooo funni! i tricked him. "time of ur life" from dirty dancing came on n it starts out slow, so he danced w/ me thinkn it was a slow song, not knowing it gets all fast after the 1st like 20 secs, haha. i jus sang the song to him n tried to make him loosen up w/ marc, ha.
after the party, me ash dave greg n jay rode around til about 1230ish. ash sat w/ a case of coronas in her lap, left over from the party. we looked like a bunch of lush's, haha. wen me n ash got home i caled jay n we hadda LONG talk about fruit, haha! after that conversation ive NEVER felt more "unconfused" in mi life! i FINALLI kno xactly wat i need to do, n im gon be fine doin it! i kno wat i want n known that jay will be there bi mi side thruout it all lets me kno that ill get thru it! i kno wat i have 2 do now, n ill be doin it for some time to come, but after some time passes im not to sure wat mi next move will be. all i kno is, this time, its gon be PERFECT! for once, i honestly think im gon be happi. now absolutly NO1 is gon understand ne of this unless ur names are ashley or jason, but dont woprri abot it, u dont need to kno wats goin on. jus kno that for the 1st time in 3 months, IM DOIN FINE! im NOT confused in the least way. im happpi, n i feel as if a HUGE weight has bin lifted off me!
well ima go now. got lots to do 2nite b4 skool 2marrow. its a new week w/ a new outlook on things! IM HAPPI! love yas all<33333
P.S. sorry for wat i put in mi profile about u. i didnt mean it, n i regret it, but wat u sed n how u acted hurt...sorry! i hope things get better from here.....MoOsH<3