Sep 27, 2004 18:47
math 103- solving word problems of interest and principle.
personal life- solving word problems of interest and principle.
talked to my dad yesterday after he tried to hunt me down Saturday night, calling nocturnalfright/ hexe_frau, who in turn called s0undgardener and then my father again to give him her number with preface to use only in case of emergency. he called anyway, just to talk to me about how i've been treating him and to mention he turned my cell phone off temporarily in the attempts of punishing me and my behavior.
you see, since i saw him last i haven't really been paying him much attention, just trying to ignore him. earlier, a confrontation with him escalated and i regret to have spat on the ground near his two feet upon him ordering me to spit on his face, proclaiming that i simply, "didn't have the balls to do it" and laughing at me while i was leaving in my car. no phone calls, one visit to grab a few items of mine in my room in which i entered the house walked to my room and exited without saying anything to him which equates to *very little "respect" exhibited on my behalf*.
needless to say, the last few times we've talked it hasn't gone well at all. but yesterday when i called him back, i decided to get what i needed from him. i didn't let him get me to the point of yelling or scoffing at his lies- i really think this was the key to getting what i needed. i asked him what the emergency was, and he told me it was that he needed to talk to me. about the phone. (GAH!) he argues with me that i, in fact, need it when i inform him that i don't. i tell him that it's become too much trouble to depend on him for much of anything anymore and thus, the phone is his. i said that because the cell phone is primarily and mainly used in the case of an emergency or to get in touch with either him or my mom when i'm out of the house. which is often. his "punishment's" are effecting how easy it is for me to get stuck in the probable emergencies any young girls out of the house face- at night, none-the-less.
but anyway, he goes on to mention that i have to forgive him and stop calling him names- i stop him and ask calmly what names i've called him. he doesn't give me any legitimate ones (listing off, 'not a father','horrible man' and 'cheat') so i clarify for him, restating the names i have called him; 'liar' and 'thief' "both of which you've rightly earned" i remind him.
then he asks when i'm going to forgive him, and i say not for a while, that the hurt of what he has done is still too fresh and that he'd have to start working with me before i could even think about respecting him again. then he asks what he could do to work with me, and i tell him to get a list of the receipts and the numbers of the bonds he cashed and to not leave any out, that if he did "forget" to include any i would consider that a fib and continue regarding him as a liar and a thief. i told him i'd give him until wed. (three days) but he jumped at the chance of redemption and said he already had everything together. so i said i'd come by and pick up a photocopy of them after class today. he asks what time i'll be around and i say around 6/7pm and i as why he needs to know. he says it's becuase he needs to be around to let me in. i inform him that i (duh) have a house key and he informs me that he has changed the locks.
i ask him why, and he says, "oh...you know...i didn't want..you...uh, safety reasons..."
i ask him "and what did I do to lose your trust, daddy?"
so now i'm here picking up 16 pages of stapled paperwork, getting ready to lock the house up and return the *NEW* key in the mail-box for my asshole father.
just thought i'd update since i don't get on the internet much these days, laptop chaos and infrequent sit-in's on other computers considered. hope everyone is well.