I'm Tired...Nothing New Uh?
Well, I'm in school. I'm taking chemistry, history, ceramics, speech, some marriage and family class, and karate. I don't have any free days besides...well...weekends. (Surprisingly) SO....I've been studying, hungry, and tired. Of course since I've only been able to see Octavio on weekends....I just keep missing the bugga. I think it helps not seeing eachother often. Probably because well...we get to see how much we love each other...let alone....at a distance...you always learn about a lot of things. We came across a bump in the road. You see....Octavio's mom started to drink again not too long ago. Myra called crying to Octavio...and coincidentally him and I were going through Yermo at the time...so...we stopped by...and he yelled at his mother. Of course I couldn't understand most of the conversation but got the basics by hearing a few words here and there. We picked up Myra...and I called my mom and asked if Myra could spend the night. My mom said no. She was mad because there was dog poop in my room...and said she didn't want another thing to worry about. How could you compare Myra to a dog? I thought. I was mad...but wanted to remain calm. Octavio was pissed as it was...so he cussed up a storm. I sat there holding his hand in the car....and knew he was glad that I was supporting him. I wanted to do everything I could to be a great wife...and what does that mean? A wife...is the backbone...if anyone knew. (Octavio just said to not forget to say that he's a bad ass). Well...regardless...Octavio is my rock...and encourages me to strive....and I'm Octavio's support. You know...women used to complain about being a housewife...or being a woman who stayed at home..who didn't work...served their life to their kids. Saying that the man had all the rights in the world. But if you ever knew how it felt to BE a wife...you'd know....being a mother, let alone just a wife...is the hardest job in the world. Supporting someone...is the hardest thing in the world. Why? In reality you work on the base of survival. You worry about you. When you support someone...it means you have to be strong for you and the other. When you have a lot of hard times...you learn a lot of things. Octavio and I have gone through A LOT just for a beginning marriage. With family, with financial, with military reasons. It's been hard. But it's like my book said, "Although problems can decrease the satisfaction in your marriage, when you succeed through it, it makes your marriage stronger." Every hard time Octavio and I had...we wanted to quit...but every time the problem was over...we loved each other more than ever. Problems teach you a lot. Distance teaches you a lot. What I learned is that I love Octavio more than anything....my pets come close. LOL. But regardless, I'll call this an entry. Adios.