LOL It is so fucked up that I am using that icon for this post. *shakes head at self*
So I've been trying to be upbeat, especially when I do a post on here cuz I normally only use this as my venting place.
Alas, today I shall fail at being my normal optimistic self. lol
I fucking HATE being a girl. I cannot even begin to explain how much I hate it, but I shall endeavor to try my very best anyway.
So, we shall start with my hating of the core of my sexuality & identity as a woman: my vagina. I hate having a vagina. Now, there are normally times when I love it. If I'm aroused, you can't really tell, for one. That saves a lot of embarassing moments as due to the fact that I'm a virgin, I don't get the kind of release my body yearns for, so I'm perpetually horny. I also work with pretty much only guys, some of which are quite cute, all of which carry guns & handcuffs. So yes, I am extremely grateful for that.
I do not, however, like at all the fact that I bleed once a month. It is super irritating as that is usually when I am most horny (stupid fucking built-in urge to procreate; fucking hate you too!). Also being as I am a virgin, that makes that time of the month especially irritating b/c I can't get off as much due to many things with I'm sure you don't want to think about & I don't really want to talk about either.
The reason why it is particularly irritating me enough to say anything today is due to a few factors: 1. Normally my 2nd & 3rd day are my heaviest, so regulars do after that. It is now the 4th day and I am more heavy today than I have been all week. It wouldn't matter if I wasn't at work (where I can't just run to the store & come back) or if I had brought enough tampons. So obviously, I'm now out of tampons and I have to be here for 8 more hours. -_-; This normally wouldn't even be a problem since I also have the pleasure of working with the only female officer on our force, my Sergeant. She, however, is out sick. So I'm stuck wiith 3 guys. I either have to leave work early or get a male officer in uniform to go to a gas station to get me more tampons....
I just want to let that sink in for a second. Granted, it's funny, but yeah.... I have to work with them. So much fun. Also, there's a guy working our shift tonight who is very cute and it's his first time working with me. Guess who is the new guy & is most likely going to be the one sent out to get my necessities. Yeah. And before anyone even says anything, I do NOT like him or anything. It is just MORE embarassing b/c he is cute and this is his first night working with me.
Also my music for the time above was a computer being really loud. It sounded like someone just leaning on their car horn about .....30 feet away and just staying leaning on it. I had to hear that for 4 hours. So I was irritated for multiple reasons.
Okay, so they let me leave, for which I am thankful. Also, this is now MANY hours later and my anger has pretty much disappeared in the face of 名探偵コナン. He's just so cute! Anyway, there was gonna be an even bigger rant about the fact that it's so unfair to be a woman b/c men can be sluts and it's okay, but it's a bad thing for a girl to be one. WTF? Also, some European country, I think it was France, did a study that showed that women being overweight drastically cut into their ability to get laid. Men, however, got as much play skinny as they did overweight. Seriously? What the fuck is with that? it just pisses me off. And guys are expected to like 2 women having sex, but I'm sick for thinking two guys going at it is hot. *grumbles & bitches*
I know that life's not fair, but dammit, it's irritating. Just another reason why I look forward to Japan. I can at least feel less embarassed for getting BL at the store...Maybe... We'll see how that works out...
Alas, today I shall fail at being my normal optimistic self. lol
I fucking HATE being a girl. I cannot even begin to explain how much I hate it, but I shall endeavor to try my very best anyway.
So, we shall start with my hating of the core of my sexuality & identity as a woman: my vagina. I hate having a vagina. Now, there are normally times when I love it. If I'm aroused, you can't really tell, for one. That saves a lot of embarassing moments as due to the fact that I'm a virgin, I don't get the kind of release my body yearns for, so I'm perpetually horny. I also work with pretty much only guys, some of which are quite cute, all of which carry guns & handcuffs. So yes, I am extremely grateful for that.
I do not, however, like at all the fact that I bleed once a month. It is super irritating as that is usually when I am most horny (stupid fucking built-in urge to procreate; fucking hate you too!). Also being as I am a virgin, that makes that time of the month especially irritating b/c I can't get off as much due to many things with I'm sure you don't want to think about & I don't really want to talk about either.
The reason why it is particularly irritating me enough to say anything today is due to a few factors: 1. Normally my 2nd & 3rd day are my heaviest, so regulars do after that. It is now the 4th day and I am more heavy today than I have been all week. It wouldn't matter if I wasn't at work (where I can't just run to the store & come back) or if I had brought enough tampons. So obviously, I'm now out of tampons and I have to be here for 8 more hours. -_-; This normally wouldn't even be a problem since I also have the pleasure of working with the only female officer on our force, my Sergeant. She, however, is out sick. So I'm stuck wiith 3 guys. I either have to leave work early or get a male officer in uniform to go to a gas station to get me more tampons....
I just want to let that sink in for a second. Granted, it's funny, but yeah.... I have to work with them. So much fun. Also, there's a guy working our shift tonight who is very cute and it's his first time working with me. Guess who is the new guy & is most likely going to be the one sent out to get my necessities. Yeah. And before anyone even says anything, I do NOT like him or anything. It is just MORE embarassing b/c he is cute and this is his first night working with me.
Also my music for the time above was a computer being really loud. It sounded like someone just leaning on their car horn about .....30 feet away and just staying leaning on it. I had to hear that for 4 hours. So I was irritated for multiple reasons.
Okay, so they let me leave, for which I am thankful. Also, this is now MANY hours later and my anger has pretty much disappeared in the face of 名探偵コナン. He's just so cute! Anyway, there was gonna be an even bigger rant about the fact that it's so unfair to be a woman b/c men can be sluts and it's okay, but it's a bad thing for a girl to be one. WTF? Also, some European country, I think it was France, did a study that showed that women being overweight drastically cut into their ability to get laid. Men, however, got as much play skinny as they did overweight. Seriously? What the fuck is with that? it just pisses me off. And guys are expected to like 2 women having sex, but I'm sick for thinking two guys going at it is hot. *grumbles & bitches*
I know that life's not fair, but dammit, it's irritating. Just another reason why I look forward to Japan. I can at least feel less embarassed for getting BL at the store...Maybe... We'll see how that works out...