cross post//see DeadJournal
from http://www.deadjournal.com/users/missamy/183185.html
i can't see how you can't do the same for me as i do for you...
i feel like.. we're not at the same level of thought...
and perhaps... that something was not as i thought it was...
now i don't want to do anything.
and i'm wondering.. if i should close this part of me now. for now and for ever.
i hate how vulnerable i can be sometimes. i don't know if i want to be so open anymore to people.
everyone sees a different part of me, at different times. i can be a mirror. i cannot be a window.
maybe... maybe i can be a wall.
close the doors to what is soft and warm inside, the nerves sensitive and easily injured, bruised. close the doors and lock this place up and away.
maybe this is melodramatic. it is. but it's what i'm thinking about... what harm in thinking... versus whatever harm in the actual actions or deeds?
so don't worry... i'm only thinking...
only worry.. when the deed is actually done.
[/16:17]
bleh, i don't know. don't worry... (not that you will.)
i just needed to vent. i always take time to think... which is why the homework never gets done...
[/16:38]
i can't see how you can't do the same for me as i do for you...
i feel like.. we're not at the same level of thought...
and perhaps... that something was not as i thought it was...
now i don't want to do anything.
and i'm wondering.. if i should close this part of me now. for now and for ever.
i hate how vulnerable i can be sometimes. i don't know if i want to be so open anymore to people.
everyone sees a different part of me, at different times. i can be a mirror. i cannot be a window.
maybe... maybe i can be a wall.
close the doors to what is soft and warm inside, the nerves sensitive and easily injured, bruised. close the doors and lock this place up and away.
maybe this is melodramatic. it is. but it's what i'm thinking about... what harm in thinking... versus whatever harm in the actual actions or deeds?
so don't worry... i'm only thinking...
only worry.. when the deed is actually done.
[/16:17]
bleh, i don't know. don't worry... (not that you will.)
i just needed to vent. i always take time to think... which is why the homework never gets done...
[/16:38]