Yes, I am alive....
I have done some soul searching. First of all, I apologize to everyone I have left hanging over the past few months. I have been out of touch for too long and it is inexcusable. I am sorry.
My name is Rachel Reed. I am 18 now, and it is time to grow up. I took a break from cleaning my room... more like decimating it, actually. my room really hasent changed in a mager way for 10 years. that is changing now. I am moving out my old stuff. I have accumulated alot of stuff... I always have been afraid to get rid of it. I used it as a way to hide, something to hold on to.
I no longer need that anymore, it is now a hinderance to my goal. I need to move on, not dwell. I miss youth sometimes... a youth I had for such a short while. My carefree childhood was nipped in the bud, and I used to think I died when it did. I spent god-knows-how-long chasing after shadows of former happiness and past years long gone. I am here now, though, and it is time to take control of my life. I have to make up for idle time spent. I just plain dont have enough time to spend it scared at the ugliness of life.
I have a few more things to say before I go.
Jaryn, I am sorry. I have been a bitch... for awhile now. Heh. That may not stop completely... But things will just get easier from here. I love you like nothing else ever, and.. thank you for so much, and understanding... and not leaving again, lol :).
Andy, I am sorry. I am sorry I just kinda left you hanging after everyhing that happened. I have been kinda busy... it wasnt just you. I hope we are still friends even tho I have not talked to you in gods know how long. :)
Amanda, read Andys journal (you can find it on my freinds page) hes one of my friends and kinda cool!;-P Sorry I havent called you... Jaryn still has your # in his pocket!!!!!! :)
yeah... and also I have a new annocment. I am writing a book. I have actually started like 3 books over the years, 2 just for the joy of the written word, but I am actually aiming to have this one published. Its one part love story, one part loose autobiograpy, and 17 parts exciting fiction ;) lol.. I started parts of it 5 years ago... and rediscovered it recently. I am in the process of getting it all together and editing... the middle chapters. >.< I think I will work on the begining next...
My name is Rachel Reed. I am 18 now, and it is time to grow up. I took a break from cleaning my room... more like decimating it, actually. my room really hasent changed in a mager way for 10 years. that is changing now. I am moving out my old stuff. I have accumulated alot of stuff... I always have been afraid to get rid of it. I used it as a way to hide, something to hold on to.
I no longer need that anymore, it is now a hinderance to my goal. I need to move on, not dwell. I miss youth sometimes... a youth I had for such a short while. My carefree childhood was nipped in the bud, and I used to think I died when it did. I spent god-knows-how-long chasing after shadows of former happiness and past years long gone. I am here now, though, and it is time to take control of my life. I have to make up for idle time spent. I just plain dont have enough time to spend it scared at the ugliness of life.
I have a few more things to say before I go.
Jaryn, I am sorry. I have been a bitch... for awhile now. Heh. That may not stop completely... But things will just get easier from here. I love you like nothing else ever, and.. thank you for so much, and understanding... and not leaving again, lol :).
Andy, I am sorry. I am sorry I just kinda left you hanging after everyhing that happened. I have been kinda busy... it wasnt just you. I hope we are still friends even tho I have not talked to you in gods know how long. :)
Amanda, read Andys journal (you can find it on my freinds page) hes one of my friends and kinda cool!;-P Sorry I havent called you... Jaryn still has your # in his pocket!!!!!! :)
yeah... and also I have a new annocment. I am writing a book. I have actually started like 3 books over the years, 2 just for the joy of the written word, but I am actually aiming to have this one published. Its one part love story, one part loose autobiograpy, and 17 parts exciting fiction ;) lol.. I started parts of it 5 years ago... and rediscovered it recently. I am in the process of getting it all together and editing... the middle chapters. >.< I think I will work on the begining next...