The best day of my life
Yesterday, the 10th of December 2011, was arguably the best day of my life. I haven't felt so much pure emotion, such happiness and satisfaction and yearning for as long as I can remember, which would be the recent 3-4 years. I went to my first ever SNSD concert *o*!
In Singapore. I traveled all by myself ^o^ I've been doing a lot of things all by myself these days, I spent this year's triple day all alone, I spent whatever that qualified as my birthday by myself.. it was all on purpose! This year is truly my hikikomori/otaku year *o* Its just me, me, me ^_^
Anyways, the real fun story is what happened yesterday ^o^! I don't know how much I'm actually going to remember and type out, and I'm certain I'll definitely regret certain stuffs and thoughts later in my life.. I just wanna put down my thoughts somewhere ^^
I left my room yesterday morning, and was pretty early to get my flight, what with the first time going to the airport without relying on anyone, I had to be prepared for anything, right? Lucky I did, because halfway on the LRT, I realized that I forgot to bring my passport!! @A@ holy shit, thinking about the possibility of realizing it only when I reached the airport and missing the flight and the then the concert.. I might've actually committed suicide.... *shrudders*
To lighten up the mood, the funny way I was reminded of my passport was that I was thinking how weird I'd be looking with my cargo pants with extra pockets to the side- it was a practical pair of pants, but it was far and away not aligned with my t-shirt and jeans look.. my old look, when I was slimmer.. ._. buuut I digress ^^ extra pockets, good also, can keep my passport after I keep my bag in the loc-- MY PASSPORT @O@ *jumps train*
Hehe ^^
The trip there was rather blah, time passed quickly and the next thing you know I'm on the wrong side of the stadium! @o@ I was pretty relieved that it was a lot smaller than I thought it'd be.. I guess being an indoor stadium limits the size.. which is good, because my lackluster partially restricted view seats actually gave me a pretty good view ^o^ ..other than it being the side that Tae Yeon least frequented T_T I should've taken the other side.. my logic for taking that particular ticket was particularly amusing- the block was T34, 3+4=7, my favorite number :3 and the seat number was 27, 2+7=9, my faaavorite number >w<
Aside from being on the wrong side, though, my side was pretty wild, it had noticeably better seats than all the other seats, for some reason.. peculiar, especially because they were at the almost far left of the stage @w@ but in any case, the crowd there was wilder and there were many instances later when everyone had warmed up that people were running down to get a closer look at the girls when the came over to this side ^_^ I of course followed suit and verified with my very own eyes that Tae Yeon exists.. ;__;
She's real.. and she looks even better in person >o< I was a bit disappointed that she wore her fringe in a sideways braid, but she looked cute nonetheless >w<~ her face~ her hair~ her body~ ;o; I actually felt apologetic to myself and all the girls that would be crazy enough to fall for me in the future (if any, haha) because right there and then, I knew I wouldn't be able to find anyone more perfect.. (this, in case you didn't spot it, is the part where I'd most probably regret posting up when I re-read it in the future.. or when someone pulls it back up to haunt me ^^ *shrugs*) ..anyways, I'm pretty sure at this point that I'll die single ^o^;;
And its not just her looks~ her mannerisms >w< just like in all the fancams and performances that I've watched her, she was obviously having a blast during the whole concert despite breaking a sweat once or twice. That's really a great quality of performers, actually, if you can feed off the energy of your fans and have a great time, it shows, and it feeds the fans with more energy and it loops infinitely and everyone wins ^O^ hehe, and then she was also her dorky self and cracked tons of jokes and made a lot of mengada expressions that made me grin and laugh out loud.. thankful that nobody was actually looking at me or could hear me, because I would die in shame of how goofy I must've looked to anyone :P
I was really happy that despite being the second day of their concert, they didn't seem really exhausted and were instead actually quite pumped and rocking out during the concert ^o^ hehehe, when Tiffany asked "who was here yesterday~?!" and Tae Yeon excitedly said "ME, ME! >w<" while raising her hands~~ she even said she liked the chilli crabs in Singapore.. ;w; I wanna hug her.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa >w< words could not express.. shit man, I've become a full fledged fanboy.. T_T;
and what a fanboy I've become- I was fanchanting the shit out of my voice, especially once The Boys came on, the Jigeumeun SoNyeoShiDae! Appeurodo SoNyeoShiDae! Yeongwonhi SoNyeoShiDae! part.. I was shouting so loud T-T I hope I didn't disrupt the concert for people next to me.. but then again sitting like directly in front of the left speaker of the stadium already numbed most of our ears anyway, I'd bet :3 Those in the moshpit were fanchanting loudly too.. and as I expected, the fanchats are really another one of the main highlights of SNSD concerts.. the energy in the air.. *_* did not disappoint, I love it, and am yearning to go to more concerts just to be a part of that energy~ Its unlike anything that I've experienced.. for you, I guess the best analogy would be when people sing anthems or cheer on their favorite football team in an intense match~ the feeling is so fucking awesome~ I love it >w<
It was funny, actually, because the logical part of my brain knew full well that none of the girls would ever be able to hear me, what with the loud chants of others closer to them, the booming music and their own earpieces relaying their own voices.. There was no practical use in cheering and embarrassing myself in the process, but I instinctively did it anyway because I was so happy just to be there, it was less a cry for attention or a message of thanks and more of an expression of how I felt at the time >o< I've never been such a huge fan of anything until this extent, so the feeling is definitely new and strange to me, which is of course why I'm putting it down here so that when I read it in the future, I'd laugh at how much of a kid I was, am ^_^
I'm really still a kid at heart, everything I did this year was self indulging, I did whatever I wanted as if my consciousness and decision making were an overly loving parent and my wants and impulses were a spoilt rich little kid >w< I'm such a little kid that in the three times that I took the plane this year (and ever in my life, if I may add) I took the window seat and stared at the tiny world under me and marveled at the poofy clouds with *o* eyes... I'm such a kid
Its a bit disappointing that I didn't make any eye contact or get really close to Tae Yeon in any way.. all I managed was to get close enough to actually see her with my own eyes- my eyes throughout the concert, the things I saw, well, if I summed it up, it wouldn't actually be a good viewing experience of the concert.. I actually didn't see much detail and take in everything because my eyes were fucking glued to Tae Yeon the whole time. No matter how far, or where she was or what she was doing.. I glanced at the monitors once or twice, but even if I had to squint to see her at the other end of the stage and give up looking at her beautiful close-ups on the monitor, I couldn't help it... this was the only time that I could see her live, in person!
Looking at her on the monitor, looking at SNSD through cameras, I could do that from my home, in full HD and waaaay better than any other viewing experience in any concert.. so I did what I couldn't do instead- see the real her with my own eyes, not through any other lenses. Which is partially why I didn't bother to bring a camera to record or take pictures, because I already have great pictures and videos of them, pure, visceral sight and memory.. that's what I don't have *_* aand I'm starting to sound creepy :3
All in all, though, the concert itself was actually pretty lackluster, I didn't get to see much because my seats were pretty far back (interesting story, I sneaked to empty front seats once or twice and got shooed away by people who came in the middle of the concert! WTF?! How could you be late?! oh well, I gave back the seats in a good manner, of course, I was having too much fun to be rude, I was so nice to everyone T_T). I didn't see enough of Tae Yeon also.. and the concert was essentially nothing new, because it was basically a re-hash of their Japan tour performances, with The Boys thrown in the middle :3
but don't get me wrong, that letdown is like 0.000001% compared to the rest which was pure joy and happiness because nothing can replace a live performance, and being there, and crying while they sang Complete and I was holding up the paper that said "SNSD makes my life complete" (it was planned that everyone should raise it up during the song) Its so true, though they really do make my life complete ;_; and the song always tugs at my heartstrings anyway, being the crybaby I am and the fact that the song signifies SNSD telling their fans that they make their lives complete... ARGH why am I such a pussy... *wipes tears* hehe, but finding out that Tae Yeon and some of the other girls cried during it too because it was so touching to them as well.. makes me feel really warm and happy ^__^ <3
I knew I was supposed to feel overjoyed with being able to attend my fandom's concert.. but I actually felt really sad and demotivated after it finished.. I think its because I miss them already and I don't want to concert to end T_T but they must rest, poor things, and good things can't last forever I guess.. but I really wanted more, I even impulsively spent 70 sing bucks on a shirt and the Mr Taxi (The Boys) repackage CD because I had to get something.. T_T I can't even fit into the shirt coz I'm so fat I bet, and I.. downloaded the CD already lol :P
Another thing that greatly demotivated me was that I had to go back to the 'real world'.. come back here, to this country.. yeah, I'm home now, which is in itself another crazy thing, I went to singapore yesterday morning, went to the concert in the evening, bummed around in the airport (which was an awesome experience let me tell you, scavenging for a place to recline and sleep? that is a story of its own!) and took the first flight in the morning back.. here. To the real world. Where all my troubles, my worries, my responsibilities, are rubbing their hands together waiting to rend my flesh and break my soul ._. oh, and Skyrim ^o^ Sheesh that thing is eating up my life, which reminds me, I have to go to Skyrim now ^__^ I think I recollected everything about the concert already~ So yeah ^_^ bye
In Singapore. I traveled all by myself ^o^ I've been doing a lot of things all by myself these days, I spent this year's triple day all alone, I spent whatever that qualified as my birthday by myself.. it was all on purpose! This year is truly my hikikomori/otaku year *o* Its just me, me, me ^_^
Anyways, the real fun story is what happened yesterday ^o^! I don't know how much I'm actually going to remember and type out, and I'm certain I'll definitely regret certain stuffs and thoughts later in my life.. I just wanna put down my thoughts somewhere ^^
I left my room yesterday morning, and was pretty early to get my flight, what with the first time going to the airport without relying on anyone, I had to be prepared for anything, right? Lucky I did, because halfway on the LRT, I realized that I forgot to bring my passport!! @A@ holy shit, thinking about the possibility of realizing it only when I reached the airport and missing the flight and the then the concert.. I might've actually committed suicide.... *shrudders*
To lighten up the mood, the funny way I was reminded of my passport was that I was thinking how weird I'd be looking with my cargo pants with extra pockets to the side- it was a practical pair of pants, but it was far and away not aligned with my t-shirt and jeans look.. my old look, when I was slimmer.. ._. buuut I digress ^^ extra pockets, good also, can keep my passport after I keep my bag in the loc-- MY PASSPORT @O@ *jumps train*
Hehe ^^
The trip there was rather blah, time passed quickly and the next thing you know I'm on the wrong side of the stadium! @o@ I was pretty relieved that it was a lot smaller than I thought it'd be.. I guess being an indoor stadium limits the size.. which is good, because my lackluster partially restricted view seats actually gave me a pretty good view ^o^ ..other than it being the side that Tae Yeon least frequented T_T I should've taken the other side.. my logic for taking that particular ticket was particularly amusing- the block was T34, 3+4=7, my favorite number :3 and the seat number was 27, 2+7=9, my faaavorite number >w<
Aside from being on the wrong side, though, my side was pretty wild, it had noticeably better seats than all the other seats, for some reason.. peculiar, especially because they were at the almost far left of the stage @w@ but in any case, the crowd there was wilder and there were many instances later when everyone had warmed up that people were running down to get a closer look at the girls when the came over to this side ^_^ I of course followed suit and verified with my very own eyes that Tae Yeon exists.. ;__;
She's real.. and she looks even better in person >o< I was a bit disappointed that she wore her fringe in a sideways braid, but she looked cute nonetheless >w<~ her face~ her hair~ her body~ ;o; I actually felt apologetic to myself and all the girls that would be crazy enough to fall for me in the future (if any, haha) because right there and then, I knew I wouldn't be able to find anyone more perfect.. (this, in case you didn't spot it, is the part where I'd most probably regret posting up when I re-read it in the future.. or when someone pulls it back up to haunt me ^^ *shrugs*) ..anyways, I'm pretty sure at this point that I'll die single ^o^;;
And its not just her looks~ her mannerisms >w< just like in all the fancams and performances that I've watched her, she was obviously having a blast during the whole concert despite breaking a sweat once or twice. That's really a great quality of performers, actually, if you can feed off the energy of your fans and have a great time, it shows, and it feeds the fans with more energy and it loops infinitely and everyone wins ^O^ hehe, and then she was also her dorky self and cracked tons of jokes and made a lot of mengada expressions that made me grin and laugh out loud.. thankful that nobody was actually looking at me or could hear me, because I would die in shame of how goofy I must've looked to anyone :P
I was really happy that despite being the second day of their concert, they didn't seem really exhausted and were instead actually quite pumped and rocking out during the concert ^o^ hehehe, when Tiffany asked "who was here yesterday~?!" and Tae Yeon excitedly said "ME, ME! >w<" while raising her hands~~ she even said she liked the chilli crabs in Singapore.. ;w; I wanna hug her.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa >w< words could not express.. shit man, I've become a full fledged fanboy.. T_T;
and what a fanboy I've become- I was fanchanting the shit out of my voice, especially once The Boys came on, the Jigeumeun SoNyeoShiDae! Appeurodo SoNyeoShiDae! Yeongwonhi SoNyeoShiDae! part.. I was shouting so loud T-T I hope I didn't disrupt the concert for people next to me.. but then again sitting like directly in front of the left speaker of the stadium already numbed most of our ears anyway, I'd bet :3 Those in the moshpit were fanchanting loudly too.. and as I expected, the fanchats are really another one of the main highlights of SNSD concerts.. the energy in the air.. *_* did not disappoint, I love it, and am yearning to go to more concerts just to be a part of that energy~ Its unlike anything that I've experienced.. for you, I guess the best analogy would be when people sing anthems or cheer on their favorite football team in an intense match~ the feeling is so fucking awesome~ I love it >w<
It was funny, actually, because the logical part of my brain knew full well that none of the girls would ever be able to hear me, what with the loud chants of others closer to them, the booming music and their own earpieces relaying their own voices.. There was no practical use in cheering and embarrassing myself in the process, but I instinctively did it anyway because I was so happy just to be there, it was less a cry for attention or a message of thanks and more of an expression of how I felt at the time >o< I've never been such a huge fan of anything until this extent, so the feeling is definitely new and strange to me, which is of course why I'm putting it down here so that when I read it in the future, I'd laugh at how much of a kid I was, am ^_^
I'm really still a kid at heart, everything I did this year was self indulging, I did whatever I wanted as if my consciousness and decision making were an overly loving parent and my wants and impulses were a spoilt rich little kid >w< I'm such a little kid that in the three times that I took the plane this year (and ever in my life, if I may add) I took the window seat and stared at the tiny world under me and marveled at the poofy clouds with *o* eyes... I'm such a kid
Its a bit disappointing that I didn't make any eye contact or get really close to Tae Yeon in any way.. all I managed was to get close enough to actually see her with my own eyes- my eyes throughout the concert, the things I saw, well, if I summed it up, it wouldn't actually be a good viewing experience of the concert.. I actually didn't see much detail and take in everything because my eyes were fucking glued to Tae Yeon the whole time. No matter how far, or where she was or what she was doing.. I glanced at the monitors once or twice, but even if I had to squint to see her at the other end of the stage and give up looking at her beautiful close-ups on the monitor, I couldn't help it... this was the only time that I could see her live, in person!
Looking at her on the monitor, looking at SNSD through cameras, I could do that from my home, in full HD and waaaay better than any other viewing experience in any concert.. so I did what I couldn't do instead- see the real her with my own eyes, not through any other lenses. Which is partially why I didn't bother to bring a camera to record or take pictures, because I already have great pictures and videos of them, pure, visceral sight and memory.. that's what I don't have *_* aand I'm starting to sound creepy :3
All in all, though, the concert itself was actually pretty lackluster, I didn't get to see much because my seats were pretty far back (interesting story, I sneaked to empty front seats once or twice and got shooed away by people who came in the middle of the concert! WTF?! How could you be late?! oh well, I gave back the seats in a good manner, of course, I was having too much fun to be rude, I was so nice to everyone T_T). I didn't see enough of Tae Yeon also.. and the concert was essentially nothing new, because it was basically a re-hash of their Japan tour performances, with The Boys thrown in the middle :3
but don't get me wrong, that letdown is like 0.000001% compared to the rest which was pure joy and happiness because nothing can replace a live performance, and being there, and crying while they sang Complete and I was holding up the paper that said "SNSD makes my life complete" (it was planned that everyone should raise it up during the song) Its so true, though they really do make my life complete ;_; and the song always tugs at my heartstrings anyway, being the crybaby I am and the fact that the song signifies SNSD telling their fans that they make their lives complete... ARGH why am I such a pussy... *wipes tears* hehe, but finding out that Tae Yeon and some of the other girls cried during it too because it was so touching to them as well.. makes me feel really warm and happy ^__^ <3
I knew I was supposed to feel overjoyed with being able to attend my fandom's concert.. but I actually felt really sad and demotivated after it finished.. I think its because I miss them already and I don't want to concert to end T_T but they must rest, poor things, and good things can't last forever I guess.. but I really wanted more, I even impulsively spent 70 sing bucks on a shirt and the Mr Taxi (The Boys) repackage CD because I had to get something.. T_T I can't even fit into the shirt coz I'm so fat I bet, and I.. downloaded the CD already lol :P
Another thing that greatly demotivated me was that I had to go back to the 'real world'.. come back here, to this country.. yeah, I'm home now, which is in itself another crazy thing, I went to singapore yesterday morning, went to the concert in the evening, bummed around in the airport (which was an awesome experience let me tell you, scavenging for a place to recline and sleep? that is a story of its own!) and took the first flight in the morning back.. here. To the real world. Where all my troubles, my worries, my responsibilities, are rubbing their hands together waiting to rend my flesh and break my soul ._. oh, and Skyrim ^o^ Sheesh that thing is eating up my life, which reminds me, I have to go to Skyrim now ^__^ I think I recollected everything about the concert already~ So yeah ^_^ bye