So happy I could cry
Lately, I've been a little vocal regarding my financial situation, and how difficult it has been for me to find a supplement income to my DJ work. This has been causing me a great deal of mental stress, as i try to figure out how to make sure my car repayments don't bounce, or cause me to go into overdraw, attracting "you're too poor, here's a fine" fees.
I have also spoken about the loss of a family dynasty at some length.
These two things are now related, because, right now, i have familial kindness to thank for helping me clear a hurdle i was having difficulty sizing up.
I have a lot to thank my cousin for, as she was under no obligation to do what she has chosen to do. She has once again put me in awe of her. I admired her greatly when we were children, and often aspired to be like her, do what she did, but i was thwarted at almost every break by others who gave me no reasoning. There were times when i was persuaded to think badly of her, and her family, and as an impressionable inocent, sheltered from many things, despite intelligence, i fell for it.
Thankfully, i have had the chance to see the world, and I'm not so easily persuaded by the subterfuge. That doesnt mean im not still shocked by it.
Back to the point.
My cousin has chosen to share her spoils with her siblings, my brother, and myself, and personally, it could not have happened at a more convenient time.
I don't want to spend what i am to receive, but i also don't want to be drowning in debt. I now have more financial freedom, and an ability to create an emergency slush fund, and build my savings again.
There is a bittersweet reason for my relief, but it is relief regardless.
Thanks cuz.