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As some of you may know, last night I admitted myself to the hospital because I tried to commit suicide. This attempt came after my boyfriend told me that he may have an STD. Partly because I am emotionally unstable, I completely freaked out. He told his mother about this, and she said that his father had a problem with genital warts. He told me this, and reassured me that he was probably ok, but I was too distraught to believe him. I wanted him to come to the hospital with me to get tested right away, but his mom wouldn't let him. He thought that if he did get tested at the hospital, it would go on his medical records and ruin his chances of getting a good job in the future, which is completely untrue. I got very angry with him, and begged him to go. All the while, his mom was yelling at him to get off the phone, and that he was completely fine. All that stress just made me want to end it all. so I took a tie from my doorknob and tried to choke myself. The tie wasn't tied in a slipknot, and I couldn't untie the knot in it. I got mad, took the tie off my neck and threw it on the ground and started crying. After A while, I decided to go to the hospital. They evaluated me for five hours, and almost put me in a psych. center. Eventually they let me go home, as long as I stay with my mom all the time for a few days, and see a therapist as soon as possible. My boyfriend is going to get tested Monday. I had a lot of time to think in the hospital, and I believe I'm getting better already.