I only hope..

[kitsune_southwd]

Quick entry...I talked to Andrew...I asked him if we could ever be together again..he said he couldnt tell me the future..and I said I just wanted to know if he WANTED us to have a 2nd chance..and he said not right now..and I said I knew that..I just meant someday...and he just said he didn't know...It's better than an automatic no..so I am gunna have to live with that...he was pissy when I called cuz his game was fucking up again...so we didnt talk too much..I asked him if he could promise to not faze me out, that we could really be friends...and that if he's busy and stuff to tell me himself...and that I want us to be close again..that he can talk to me about anything...I'm here for him no matter what...I only hope one day we can be together again...I'm gunna wait quite a while to talk to him about everything..to try and understand it all, cuz I honestly dont believe he never loved me...too much was said and done for him to have not loved me at all during our 8 months together...theres no way...

well, me gunna try to update my msn..again! and hope it works...I hope to be able to hold my own for long enough...cuz I really want to be with Andrew...everything around me is him...whether it has to do with him or not...I dedicated my life to him...I know I shouldnt have..but we were so close and talked about all our future plans together..I thought I had finally found the one I'd be with forever...and I hope that we can be still...*shrugs*

Well, damn msn is gunna take like an hour or so...looks like I'll be online longer than I wanted to be...I might just finish my journals, etc. and friggen play Sims till its done...