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Dont really have a title for today..I'm only on quick to go through emails..and was seeing if Andrew was online cuz he was showing Max a music video on the computer when I called...
Christopher said they need to discuss the cage thing more..*shakes head* I'll just ask Andrew to ask his mom saying if she still has any left for me than Christopher said he may get me the cage...*shrugs* We'll see...hes coming over tomorrow and I'm thinking I may try to bring up the fact at least that I've been a bit depressed...just cuz how everything has been this past week and I know things havent been easy or anything much this past week for him but it feels like he's pulling away from me and I just wanted to know if it's just cuz things have been stressful for him, cuz thats natural then..or if it's cuz he wants us to slow down even more..or if maybe theres another reason...and hopefully mention about him and jen hanging out AGAIN when he was too sick to see me....I dont wanna sound rude or anything..but cmon...I wanna take care of him when he's sick, etc...and he wouldnt even see me, but made sure they got together..again...*shrugs* I just dont wanna come off sounding like a bitch or to start one of those convos that I dread....so hopefully I can find a way to get it going without harm...or maybe things will go so well I wont need to..I dunno...I'll just have to see how things go and maybe the convo will bring itself up somehow..if I'm lucky...I'm going to tell him I love him though at some point..I must..I ust need to know when...cuz I dunno...it seems stupid to say it during or after sex..cuz thats different...so maybe before when we're kissing, if it gets intimate like last time I'll say it...*shrugs* I just hope things can calm down and be good again...
Well, gunna go I guess..dont wanna be on long cuz he said he would call me back cuz he had been eating supper when I called...
Christopher said they need to discuss the cage thing more..*shakes head* I'll just ask Andrew to ask his mom saying if she still has any left for me than Christopher said he may get me the cage...*shrugs* We'll see...hes coming over tomorrow and I'm thinking I may try to bring up the fact at least that I've been a bit depressed...just cuz how everything has been this past week and I know things havent been easy or anything much this past week for him but it feels like he's pulling away from me and I just wanted to know if it's just cuz things have been stressful for him, cuz thats natural then..or if it's cuz he wants us to slow down even more..or if maybe theres another reason...and hopefully mention about him and jen hanging out AGAIN when he was too sick to see me....I dont wanna sound rude or anything..but cmon...I wanna take care of him when he's sick, etc...and he wouldnt even see me, but made sure they got together..again...*shrugs* I just dont wanna come off sounding like a bitch or to start one of those convos that I dread....so hopefully I can find a way to get it going without harm...or maybe things will go so well I wont need to..I dunno...I'll just have to see how things go and maybe the convo will bring itself up somehow..if I'm lucky...I'm going to tell him I love him though at some point..I must..I ust need to know when...cuz I dunno...it seems stupid to say it during or after sex..cuz thats different...so maybe before when we're kissing, if it gets intimate like last time I'll say it...*shrugs* I just hope things can calm down and be good again...
Well, gunna go I guess..dont wanna be on long cuz he said he would call me back cuz he had been eating supper when I called...