The pact was made
well me and my mom have been doing some talking, and well i have agreed to go back home, only if my extension of stay is not approved. If it is, then she agrees to support me for the rest of the time i'm up here. My mom has really changed a lot which is very nice. With the way Kaleb has been acting towards me lately, sometimes i wish i was back home.
but besides that things have been ok... Apparently my dad had fun yesterday at don pablo's sorta wish i coulda been there for this birthday in a mexican restaurant. He of course is just like me, didn't order anything fancy, just had all you can eat tacos lol. I left my post on the LS forums that i won't be playing game for like 3-4 weeks, i'm just so bored with it now, i'm not challenged anymore really. And since i am always playing BRD for everything... it gets really really boring. Yes i do love the job, but sometimes i'd like to do something else for a change of place. which never happens hardly ever. and if it does happen its for stupid easy shit like limbus or something. I just wanna do more experiences in the game since i've been doing the same shit for basically 3 years straight. I have more fun doing dynamis with a bunch of nubs and failing at it, vs doing dynamis on brd alll the time and doing the same shit over. I dunno the people in the other dynamis i do don't make me come brd, they let me decide what i wanna come as, which is nice. Don't mind even playing blm for them since i leeched soooo much AF from them. I find more fun in challenges even if we do fail, i'm gaining more experience on other jobs then just sitting and doing the same shit over. I find myself even windowed out more often then usual when playing brd for certain events. Windowed out watching anime, or reading manga, or playing my DS. Playing FFXI shouldn't feel like a chore, which is what it does for me right now. and it seems Kaleb has such an attitude towards my decission which i really don't care at this point. I don't have a simple mind like he does, that can easily be entertained by doing the same shit over and over. I need stuff that can keep me busy, thats challenging and different every now and then. and everytime i ask to do something different i'm always slapped in the face with
"Omg yer doing brd relic you should love playing brd all the time"
I don't mind playing brd, not saying i don't like the job, but wanting to play something different apparently is such a crime? Outta all the people i know with relics a lotta them also like to do something different. Like snoop for example, finished relic great katana. Yes he likes playing sam, but he also likes playing blm and rdm. Like everytime i ask, Blade Nicki and Moshi are the same 3 people to constantly throw this shit at me, and i got really tired of it.
*sigh* but enough about the FFXI emoness. If i do end up going home, I will be staying home for like 2 years or so. Which i don't mind. My mom is looking for a new house soon, so by the time i come back home, we will probably be moving. Which i really like to hear, i dunno i'm a sucker for moving into new houses. I especially love if the backyard is met to my standards. a fenced in yard with a bit of space. I used to always spend my time in the backyard when i was little. Our first house had a very big yard. So sitting outside during a summer day, under my favorite tree is what i always liked to do. I also have plans on probably getting a dog so a nice back yard i would love. I dunno the more and more i think about it, I don't know if i would ever return back up here once I went home. Yes I do love Kaleb but... The US is just sooo much cheaper when it comes to buying stuff lol. The much more i ponder it, I probably will quit FFXI for a little bit too. Just until I get my life back on track. After I send this paperwork in, if my stay gets extended will go from there, if not then kinda happy to be heading home.
but besides that things have been ok... Apparently my dad had fun yesterday at don pablo's sorta wish i coulda been there for this birthday in a mexican restaurant. He of course is just like me, didn't order anything fancy, just had all you can eat tacos lol. I left my post on the LS forums that i won't be playing game for like 3-4 weeks, i'm just so bored with it now, i'm not challenged anymore really. And since i am always playing BRD for everything... it gets really really boring. Yes i do love the job, but sometimes i'd like to do something else for a change of place. which never happens hardly ever. and if it does happen its for stupid easy shit like limbus or something. I just wanna do more experiences in the game since i've been doing the same shit for basically 3 years straight. I have more fun doing dynamis with a bunch of nubs and failing at it, vs doing dynamis on brd alll the time and doing the same shit over. I dunno the people in the other dynamis i do don't make me come brd, they let me decide what i wanna come as, which is nice. Don't mind even playing blm for them since i leeched soooo much AF from them. I find more fun in challenges even if we do fail, i'm gaining more experience on other jobs then just sitting and doing the same shit over. I find myself even windowed out more often then usual when playing brd for certain events. Windowed out watching anime, or reading manga, or playing my DS. Playing FFXI shouldn't feel like a chore, which is what it does for me right now. and it seems Kaleb has such an attitude towards my decission which i really don't care at this point. I don't have a simple mind like he does, that can easily be entertained by doing the same shit over and over. I need stuff that can keep me busy, thats challenging and different every now and then. and everytime i ask to do something different i'm always slapped in the face with
"Omg yer doing brd relic you should love playing brd all the time"
I don't mind playing brd, not saying i don't like the job, but wanting to play something different apparently is such a crime? Outta all the people i know with relics a lotta them also like to do something different. Like snoop for example, finished relic great katana. Yes he likes playing sam, but he also likes playing blm and rdm. Like everytime i ask, Blade Nicki and Moshi are the same 3 people to constantly throw this shit at me, and i got really tired of it.
*sigh* but enough about the FFXI emoness. If i do end up going home, I will be staying home for like 2 years or so. Which i don't mind. My mom is looking for a new house soon, so by the time i come back home, we will probably be moving. Which i really like to hear, i dunno i'm a sucker for moving into new houses. I especially love if the backyard is met to my standards. a fenced in yard with a bit of space. I used to always spend my time in the backyard when i was little. Our first house had a very big yard. So sitting outside during a summer day, under my favorite tree is what i always liked to do. I also have plans on probably getting a dog so a nice back yard i would love. I dunno the more and more i think about it, I don't know if i would ever return back up here once I went home. Yes I do love Kaleb but... The US is just sooo much cheaper when it comes to buying stuff lol. The much more i ponder it, I probably will quit FFXI for a little bit too. Just until I get my life back on track. After I send this paperwork in, if my stay gets extended will go from there, if not then kinda happy to be heading home.