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Well a guy really knows how to make a girl feel useless and really bad. Felt sorta helpless not being able to help him clean... then to find out the dog has been secretly stashing poo in the corner... ya know if this house was completely clean maybe we'd already woulda saw it. But in the end can't help but feel its my fault. Sometimes i feel like maybe i shoulda got a cat like i planned on. Juuust maybe. Ah well whats done is done.
To add to the mess today my computer started to freak me out and wouldn't turn on, so i thought. Turns out the monitor was off... I feel retarded oh yes.
Hope to get intouch with my uncle this evening atleast. Maybe things will get a little better... I hope anyway.
Sorta feel like he doesn't really care about me or what I feel... hell Kaleb half the time blocks me out when I ask him things! He still never answered me about going to his parents. I asked him if he really wanted me to go but instead he kept babbling on and on about how much I shouldn't go. Then yesterday asked me what we were gonna do with the dog since we were gonna go over his parents house. I told him I'm not going, he asked why and so on and I told him, you still never gave me a straight answer about wether You want me to go or not. You know what his response was?
"You asked me that? When was this?" I feel so loved... even for things so small, still hurts to know that you've been ignored. So i'm spending christmas alone. Gonna curl up with some cookies and watch some anime. As for a christmas present, the Katana I tried to order for him can't be shipped here, go figure. Canada really sucks when it comes to online stuff. I did find one tho that would be sent here. It cost like 14 bucks yet my whole total came out to be like 70 bucks which I don't understand, so I said fuck it. I guess i could go out into a store and find something. I seriously doubt hes getting me anything for christmas... No one can match my ultimate gift I want for christmas. I want a puppy from my choice of dogs. I've always asked for one but One year I got Comet instead, which is what I was happy with... so even if its a Mixed breed... I still want a puppy. Nothing beats going through the puppy phase. Its like having a baby. I really would like one, but i doubt hes gonna figure that out/get me one lol.
A girl can dream!
To add to the mess today my computer started to freak me out and wouldn't turn on, so i thought. Turns out the monitor was off... I feel retarded oh yes.
Hope to get intouch with my uncle this evening atleast. Maybe things will get a little better... I hope anyway.
Sorta feel like he doesn't really care about me or what I feel... hell Kaleb half the time blocks me out when I ask him things! He still never answered me about going to his parents. I asked him if he really wanted me to go but instead he kept babbling on and on about how much I shouldn't go. Then yesterday asked me what we were gonna do with the dog since we were gonna go over his parents house. I told him I'm not going, he asked why and so on and I told him, you still never gave me a straight answer about wether You want me to go or not. You know what his response was?
"You asked me that? When was this?" I feel so loved... even for things so small, still hurts to know that you've been ignored. So i'm spending christmas alone. Gonna curl up with some cookies and watch some anime. As for a christmas present, the Katana I tried to order for him can't be shipped here, go figure. Canada really sucks when it comes to online stuff. I did find one tho that would be sent here. It cost like 14 bucks yet my whole total came out to be like 70 bucks which I don't understand, so I said fuck it. I guess i could go out into a store and find something. I seriously doubt hes getting me anything for christmas... No one can match my ultimate gift I want for christmas. I want a puppy from my choice of dogs. I've always asked for one but One year I got Comet instead, which is what I was happy with... so even if its a Mixed breed... I still want a puppy. Nothing beats going through the puppy phase. Its like having a baby. I really would like one, but i doubt hes gonna figure that out/get me one lol.
A girl can dream!