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I swear to god I don't get enough love for planning all this stuff. Seriously. Actually from what it's come to be, I don't get any love. gee...I feel so special. I'm almost willing to let the gods go ahead and strike me down. They've already given me tons of problems.
Oh yeah. Ankle is acting up. AGAIN.
Lost my L shirt, AGAIN. Thankfully I found another one that could work.
No love.
Yeah things are kinda outta order. sorry very frazzled. haven't even showered or read my homework. Basically I've been going through my five stages of before con misery.
Stage 1. Packing issues: Losing pieces of clothing, essential items, can't pack certain things until tomorrow morning, don't know if I really need something or not. Bag is really heavy, thankfully it has wheels.
Stage 2. Irritation from every joyful thing said by people: When I am at maximum stress level (like I am now.) If you are telling me happy great things that have happened to you while I'm going insane with panic and worry. You're really pissing me off and probably only one second from being killed
Stage 3. Depression. Fear nothing will work out: Everything is going to fall apart. They'll lose our tickets, our hotel reservation. I'll end up being tossed aside (hmm like at Akon and Ushicon 5? Why yes!) My costumes are going to look bad, no one will think they work. People will think I'm too bossy even though I'm just trying to get things to work smoothly. Everyone is going to think I'm a bitch just because I'll say no about something. Augh.
Stage 4. Spazzy: Holy fuck where are my gloves? Is Kyle's stuff packed??? Did I remember the stuff people asked me to bring??? Are the props in there? Will everyone remember there stuff? Will it really work out??? *twitch twitch spaz*
Stage 5. Exaustion: Oh god I'm tired. I still have chores. I have to shower. I have to do homework. damnit am I ever going to get any sleep? Do you all realize it has been four months since I had a decent night of sleep. On my own. Without being sick? The earliest I have gone to bed/fallen asleep has been 11:30 but that was simply because I was really sick. So I don't want anyone telling me they're tired. I've had 4 MONTHS of no real sleep. 4. Months.
Yeah. Five very miserable stages. I really honestly do not like this part. See, I have to get ready earlier than everyone else because I have to go to Yuki's tomorrow to make sure she gets herself ready!!! I have to be packed, ready and completly done by tomorrow after work before I go to Yuki's house! The rest of you have at least an extra day!!! AUgh! I still have stuff to print out! I have to make sure money is safe!!! augh it's really gonna suck if I have yet another break down this month...then again techincally it is the first so it could be my first breakdown of the month. Augh. I don't know. I hate myself. I need to finish getting stuff done. I just needed a rant space and nobody is listening to me anyway. Augh.
At least I'll be better at the con. Unless someone really screws up. blarg
Oh yeah. Ankle is acting up. AGAIN.
Lost my L shirt, AGAIN. Thankfully I found another one that could work.
No love.
Yeah things are kinda outta order. sorry very frazzled. haven't even showered or read my homework. Basically I've been going through my five stages of before con misery.
Stage 1. Packing issues: Losing pieces of clothing, essential items, can't pack certain things until tomorrow morning, don't know if I really need something or not. Bag is really heavy, thankfully it has wheels.
Stage 2. Irritation from every joyful thing said by people: When I am at maximum stress level (like I am now.) If you are telling me happy great things that have happened to you while I'm going insane with panic and worry. You're really pissing me off and probably only one second from being killed
Stage 3. Depression. Fear nothing will work out: Everything is going to fall apart. They'll lose our tickets, our hotel reservation. I'll end up being tossed aside (hmm like at Akon and Ushicon 5? Why yes!) My costumes are going to look bad, no one will think they work. People will think I'm too bossy even though I'm just trying to get things to work smoothly. Everyone is going to think I'm a bitch just because I'll say no about something. Augh.
Stage 4. Spazzy: Holy fuck where are my gloves? Is Kyle's stuff packed??? Did I remember the stuff people asked me to bring??? Are the props in there? Will everyone remember there stuff? Will it really work out??? *twitch twitch spaz*
Stage 5. Exaustion: Oh god I'm tired. I still have chores. I have to shower. I have to do homework. damnit am I ever going to get any sleep? Do you all realize it has been four months since I had a decent night of sleep. On my own. Without being sick? The earliest I have gone to bed/fallen asleep has been 11:30 but that was simply because I was really sick. So I don't want anyone telling me they're tired. I've had 4 MONTHS of no real sleep. 4. Months.
Yeah. Five very miserable stages. I really honestly do not like this part. See, I have to get ready earlier than everyone else because I have to go to Yuki's tomorrow to make sure she gets herself ready!!! I have to be packed, ready and completly done by tomorrow after work before I go to Yuki's house! The rest of you have at least an extra day!!! AUgh! I still have stuff to print out! I have to make sure money is safe!!! augh it's really gonna suck if I have yet another break down this month...then again techincally it is the first so it could be my first breakdown of the month. Augh. I don't know. I hate myself. I need to finish getting stuff done. I just needed a rant space and nobody is listening to me anyway. Augh.
At least I'll be better at the con. Unless someone really screws up. blarg