Life is hard...
...but I'm still smiling. I didn't have access to the Internet the last 2 weeks because something was wrong with the connection. I didn't miss it much, but I need it. It's just much more convenient if you're searching for work. Which I am doing now. It's not as scary as I think and I get some money because I worked before. I'm pretty confident that I'll get a job soon. If not I'll find another solution, it won't be that hard. Maybe I am naive but I just think that I'm a hard worker and there must be some company out there that needs me.
Neko thank you for your card. The picture looks very mysterious!!!
Thanks to Saku as well for her card from Cork. Really beautiful over there, too. But I know that postcards always show the chocolate site of things :)
It's so strange being home and NOTHING changed. I'm back with my parents and I don't know it's the same as it was before I left. I feel like this year has never happened, like I just skipped a year and now I'm back here and everything's the absolute same. It feels so unreal that I walked the streets of Tokyo just a months ago or that I worked in the outback of Australia. It's so weird, my year is gone and the only thing that's left are a few memories and a few pictures. I don't know if I can handle that or decide to go again asap. I just don't know anything. I have no idea what to do. If I should stay in Germany or not. It's such a hard decision. Sometimes I think, you live such a good life here, why bother and make it harder for you? But on the other hand I don't even feel alive here in Germany it's just some shallow existence, but I really felt alive when I travelled. I have a lot to think about.
Other than that I've gone blonde. Completely. It was a shock at first but I'll get used to it. I was blonde as a kid as well and it looks really cute. Most people were shocked even my mother. But I don't care I wanted something different, and I thought I should try it while I'm still young.
Neko thank you for your card. The picture looks very mysterious!!!
Thanks to Saku as well for her card from Cork. Really beautiful over there, too. But I know that postcards always show the chocolate site of things :)
It's so strange being home and NOTHING changed. I'm back with my parents and I don't know it's the same as it was before I left. I feel like this year has never happened, like I just skipped a year and now I'm back here and everything's the absolute same. It feels so unreal that I walked the streets of Tokyo just a months ago or that I worked in the outback of Australia. It's so weird, my year is gone and the only thing that's left are a few memories and a few pictures. I don't know if I can handle that or decide to go again asap. I just don't know anything. I have no idea what to do. If I should stay in Germany or not. It's such a hard decision. Sometimes I think, you live such a good life here, why bother and make it harder for you? But on the other hand I don't even feel alive here in Germany it's just some shallow existence, but I really felt alive when I travelled. I have a lot to think about.
Other than that I've gone blonde. Completely. It was a shock at first but I'll get used to it. I was blonde as a kid as well and it looks really cute. Most people were shocked even my mother. But I don't care I wanted something different, and I thought I should try it while I'm still young.