So..
..I´m still feeling kind of weird. I thought it was because of the menstruation, but I´m not sure. Why do I feel so strange? Another Test on Friday this time it´s that economy shit which I hate more than anything else. All that stupid things to learn..cannot do it anymore. I wanna have holidays. It´s hot and I feel sick. This weekend I read Pope Joan. This book is kind of scary. And just somewhat disgusting if you don´t like religious themes. <---which I don´t, especially nothing that has to do with the catholic church. But I just borrowed the book anyway. Just read it because I´m a sucker for that girl-dresses-as-a boy stories. Next week at that time I´m probably through with Harry Potter 5! Cannot wait I´m so excited. I cancelled the amazon order because I want to have it on the 21st and not the week after that. Then I realized I still had ordered something and they already had it in the Send-Modus. Thank you, now I have to pay 3 €..I´m stupid. But who cares, I´ll get Harry Potter for 14 € and on Saturday morning already, what more can you wish for:
Just to survive this horrible week! I had a terrible dream the other night that one woman of our company who writes the Evaluation for the current department I´m working in came to me and told me basically that I sucked royally. I´m already scared of that woman (she is just scary) and now I´´m even more scared to show her my work or do something for her because that dream, well it was so real. I thought it really had happened all day long.
I´m thinking of my future at the moment. Yes, I know I´m still in my first year. But I somewhat unsure if I should stay at this company afterwards. I mean it´s nice and fun and everyone says in these times you have to be thankful to be employed. And they are right. But I´m still young. I want to do something different. And just because I don´t have the Abitur it doesn´t mean I´ll have to work in this job my life long. I wanna do something that is more..mmh..exciting. Maybe work in a foreign country. I´m not really sure when this idea was born but now I wanna do it, really want to. I know I can think about it I have a lot of time. I wanna get away from here even if it´s just for a short time. *sigh* I´m going to learn a bit and pack my things for work tomorrow. Till then...
Just to survive this horrible week! I had a terrible dream the other night that one woman of our company who writes the Evaluation for the current department I´m working in came to me and told me basically that I sucked royally. I´m already scared of that woman (she is just scary) and now I´´m even more scared to show her my work or do something for her because that dream, well it was so real. I thought it really had happened all day long.
I´m thinking of my future at the moment. Yes, I know I´m still in my first year. But I somewhat unsure if I should stay at this company afterwards. I mean it´s nice and fun and everyone says in these times you have to be thankful to be employed. And they are right. But I´m still young. I want to do something different. And just because I don´t have the Abitur it doesn´t mean I´ll have to work in this job my life long. I wanna do something that is more..mmh..exciting. Maybe work in a foreign country. I´m not really sure when this idea was born but now I wanna do it, really want to. I know I can think about it I have a lot of time. I wanna get away from here even if it´s just for a short time. *sigh* I´m going to learn a bit and pack my things for work tomorrow. Till then...