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I've been sleeping a lot lately.
It has got to stop.
Albeit...I've been having some craaazy nap dreams.
Still, all this sleeping can't be a good thing.
I'm going to miss the Motion City concert tomorrow. Kelly has a intramural football game and we were going to ride together. Oh well. I've seen them once, and it was amazing. I figure I can wait to see them again.
I feel like I have my schoolwork under control, but that makes me nervous. I know I can't get too relaxed. Bad things happen when I get too relaxed. Although, I made a 100 on my last math test (even though it was ridiculously easy...I was still amazed.)
Today was the first legitimately chilly day.
I was so excited.
I can stop kidding myself that it's sweater weather, and not feel like an idiot wearing cardigans everywhere.
I love fall.
Love love.
I've got to figure out how the film in my Diana+ camera works though, because I keep screwing something up.
This would be an awesome time to start using it.
Hooray for lomo.
I hate thinking that I miss two summers ago.
I mean, I do...but there is no use in missing it.
It happened.
I had fun.
Now I'm here.
But the thing is, I don't really feel like I'm here. I don't know where I am.
I observe, but I don't process.
I keep it filed in my brain, waiting to examine it all later.
I guess I'm too frightened to really put myself in any position to fail.
Friendships.
Academics.
Spirituality.
I'm frightened. Of what, I'm not sure.
Which makes it worse, I guess.
It has got to stop.
Albeit...I've been having some craaazy nap dreams.
Still, all this sleeping can't be a good thing.
I'm going to miss the Motion City concert tomorrow. Kelly has a intramural football game and we were going to ride together. Oh well. I've seen them once, and it was amazing. I figure I can wait to see them again.
I feel like I have my schoolwork under control, but that makes me nervous. I know I can't get too relaxed. Bad things happen when I get too relaxed. Although, I made a 100 on my last math test (even though it was ridiculously easy...I was still amazed.)
Today was the first legitimately chilly day.
I was so excited.
I can stop kidding myself that it's sweater weather, and not feel like an idiot wearing cardigans everywhere.
I love fall.
Love love.
I've got to figure out how the film in my Diana+ camera works though, because I keep screwing something up.
This would be an awesome time to start using it.
Hooray for lomo.
I hate thinking that I miss two summers ago.
I mean, I do...but there is no use in missing it.
It happened.
I had fun.
Now I'm here.
But the thing is, I don't really feel like I'm here. I don't know where I am.
I observe, but I don't process.
I keep it filed in my brain, waiting to examine it all later.
I guess I'm too frightened to really put myself in any position to fail.
Friendships.
Academics.
Spirituality.
I'm frightened. Of what, I'm not sure.
Which makes it worse, I guess.