over
i'm so over people, i'm over boys, i'm over trying to put myself out there and getting it all back in my face, i'm over friends always getting the guys i like, i'm over all of the stupid games girls play just to get attention, i'm over always being overlooked by guys, i'm over being inexperienced.
i'm just over it.
i went back to the bar to have no regrets with the bartender, it was a good night, he remembered me, i drank . . . ALOT, i randomly talked to me, he served me and jade all night, made a shot and named it after me (it was sweet coz he put midori in there and thats what i had been drinking) so i thought i was in WHOO finally a guy i like, likes me maybe back! so i gave him my number and told him it was for later and left.
back to work on monday i find out my friend who had gotten his number the previous week and had been txting him with no interest in him whatever was still txting him and same with him, and she still was pretty much dicking him around. the thing is whats she got that i don't . . ok so i think i know and its that whole sex factor, she can give him what he's potentionally after, whereas being untouched like me i don't think i could just give it up like that, but having said that i don't get given the chance. sure yes he mite not even be interested in me, i'm only assuming if she wasn't in the picture that he would txt me, coz well i like me so why wouldn't he?
it just is frustrating because he seemed really sweet and nice and again one of my friends gets him . . well not that she's interested (or so i've heard) but shit like this does wonders for my self esteem . . . not, although i'm trying not to let it effect me. as people keep telling me there's plenty more fish in the sea . . . yea right, then i must be using the wrong bait coz i've never gotten a bite.
i just needed to rant and get it out there, i could say more but i won't
although good news for me, i'm going to soundwave 2009 in brisbane in feb next year, heres hoping jonathan cook from forever the sickest kids falls madly deeply in love with me and takes me away . . . .
i can dream.
i'm just over it.
i went back to the bar to have no regrets with the bartender, it was a good night, he remembered me, i drank . . . ALOT, i randomly talked to me, he served me and jade all night, made a shot and named it after me (it was sweet coz he put midori in there and thats what i had been drinking) so i thought i was in WHOO finally a guy i like, likes me maybe back! so i gave him my number and told him it was for later and left.
back to work on monday i find out my friend who had gotten his number the previous week and had been txting him with no interest in him whatever was still txting him and same with him, and she still was pretty much dicking him around. the thing is whats she got that i don't . . ok so i think i know and its that whole sex factor, she can give him what he's potentionally after, whereas being untouched like me i don't think i could just give it up like that, but having said that i don't get given the chance. sure yes he mite not even be interested in me, i'm only assuming if she wasn't in the picture that he would txt me, coz well i like me so why wouldn't he?
it just is frustrating because he seemed really sweet and nice and again one of my friends gets him . . well not that she's interested (or so i've heard) but shit like this does wonders for my self esteem . . . not, although i'm trying not to let it effect me. as people keep telling me there's plenty more fish in the sea . . . yea right, then i must be using the wrong bait coz i've never gotten a bite.
i just needed to rant and get it out there, i could say more but i won't
although good news for me, i'm going to soundwave 2009 in brisbane in feb next year, heres hoping jonathan cook from forever the sickest kids falls madly deeply in love with me and takes me away . . . .
i can dream.