Christmas
Christmas is just about a week away. I wonder how I'll feel on Christmas day without any of the things I've become accustomed to. I'll miss planning for the Christmas party that the crew and I have annually. I'll miss going on last minute shopping trips to the mall, going to midnight mass 4 cars deep etc.
This year I'll be without my mother, father, boomboom, cheska, and the crew. Instead I'll have my brother dear, my relatives, new friends, new sights to see, new traditions, new experiences, etc.
I'm sitting here trying to think of what to blog about, but I can't seem to type up anything interesting. Actually there is something I want to blog about, but I'd rather just keep that for myself. Some aspects of my daily life doesn't need to be aired out. Lets just say, I'm so confused. The answer is staring at my in the face, I just have a hard time facing the facts. I have a hard time letting go of something that I should. My professor once said, "Why continue to go after something that doesn't make you happy?". It hit me, the moment he said that, but I just can't let go. A part of my doesn't want to, but most of me knows that I should. Its just a dead end, leading to nowhere. I guess thats what I feel for now because nothing is really going on.
Blah... such a mess!!